making sure I'm not posting this where everyone can see it.

Well Lets start off with the fact that, I really truly do not think ill make it far in this game. Being a returning winner i feel like puts an immediate target on my back all the way through.
Next thing is there is 11 people on each tribe and I have 6 of them from epic 3. Thats majority if they wanna keep it simple. I hope it doesn't go that way but why the fuck not, gives them some easy security in the early rounds. I gotta hope that we don't lose these immunities early on or it would be easy to just be like hey guys lets stick together and we should just take out sierra now, she won before so we know she's a good player. and i get voted out.

anyway lets talk about my tribemates.

Ronnie- From the convos we have had so far he seems cool. I know he will be beneficial in the challenges from the mini i played with him so I'm gonna make sure i get to know him pretty well to hopefully not be on his radar if/when we gotta vote people out.

Courtney - only spoke 2 times so far and they didn't lead very far but ill be working on it more.

John - Prolly the "easy" vote if we lose the first immunity hasn't been on aim from what i have seen and also hasn't logged into the board in days. Possibly the only inactive on the tribe.

Chef - playing tag on aim, never on at the same times but Yul came to me with some info today that he's already trying to build an alliance of him yul and heather. yul also told me that he suggested my name for a 4th person.

Yul - Talked to him a good bit, we get along pretty well, talked some game today and was sort of offered a 4 person alliance that i obviously agreed to.

Jeremiah - We have talked quite a bit and he's cool and would potentially work with him. We have not discussed it yet but I'm sure when we lose a challenge and the game talk really sets in we will attempt to work together which i would be ok with.

Julie- Even though we have not officially stated were in alliance together yet we have that auto connection of pervious winners and we know we will have targets in this game so we have each others backs. Depending on how things go from here i think it would be pretty EPIC to have us sitting in the end together, both winners from the epic series making it to the end again. although she would KILL me in a FTC since i totally bomb at that part of the game, would need to consider taking her out towards the end so i could go against two shitty people i can beat. Lets be honest here i will get blindsided way before i get anywhere near the end of the game.

Danni- Haven't spoken to her at all yet but know she's gotta be at least a decent player to have gotten to the end in 3.

Heather- She's cool and would consider working with her when the right opportunity comes up, i just hope its not with Chef since id rather work with the people of my choice and not brought in as a 4th wheel.

Eric S - We interacted in the mini after epic 3 where he asked me not to vote him out and i outright said sorry I'm voting you out so hopefully its not some thing he really cared about or even remembers. I didn't lie so hopefully that was a good thing.

I have played up being a very loyal person to the people i give my word to ( and actually mean) and for the most part is true. The past two games i played i made an alliance with people i liked and i stuck to it til the end ( with the exception of michelle which was strictly based on not handing her the game).


I really wanted to do this live challenge on monday but it looks like i have to play overly nice still and give up my live spot to eric. Better to not cause waves this early on. Hopefully we win, but if we don't i hope someone royally fucks up and loses it for us and we can blame them, ill just fade into the background. I know with 3 people leaving each round a swap can't be to far into the game and thats what ill be waiting on. Getting red covered wouldn't be upsetting to me.



SO im lazy and not going to go back and edit all the mistakes that i am sure are in there. You get the main point of where my heads at. I wish i was dedicated like some people to write novels with perfect editing and pictures and clever one liners and all but that just aint me. Im bored and rambling now.

Hot tub time machine is on TV and i never saw it so i figured id give it a watch since i heard it was good. ITs terrible, boring and not funny at all.

I am both anxious and excited to see how you'll do this time. Hopefully you not being the only big target will help out, it is AS so everyone is a threat. Sucks John is kinda MIA he was excellent in the past

abi @ 4/7/2015 23:43

I am both anxious and excited to see how you'll do this time. Hopefully you not being the only big target will help out, it is AS so everyone is a threat. Sucks John is kinda MIA he was excellent in the past

Soo is this your way of rooting for me 😝 haha jk.




So of course typically in every game someone posts a public confessional. Erik was the one to do it this time and from what I could see I think I'm the only one who saw/read it. I took screen shots so I'll post them later to use for reference or if need be bargaining chips. I informed him right away and he was very thankful that I let him know. Hopefully built a little trust with him. What he doesn't know is that I have the screen shots. I told him I didn't read it which WAS true when I said it to him. Of course I read them afterwards and got some insight.

I find it very sketchy that yul has an alliance with him as well. I feel like he's the type of player to make alliances all over the place. We will see how this challenge goes. If we lose and it's not looking to good for me then I'll do what I gotta do, but for now this will stay with just me.

I'm so torn on how I wanna play this game, idk if I wanna be the good loyal person I can be or the cold hearted backstabbing bitch I wanna play as 😝.

Well this isn't exactly what I wanted/thought was going to happen. Voting two people put right away blows.

Julie and I have formed an alliance and I actually trust her, she and I are the only two former epic winners and figured it's best to stick together. Plus we worked together in the mini after epic 3 and really
Got along so it made sense for us.

From there Yul put together an alliance of me, him, chef, heather, Danni, Julie. Which is majority and sounds great and all but half
Of us have barely spoke so it's hard to trust a group where you never speak to them. They wanna target Eric(aka: yul wants to) which is be fine with since him and I have barely spoken. I tried to reach out last night but the
Convo just didn't go very far.

Julie showed me convo from both Eric and Danni stating they don't really trust/know me at all since we don't talk much. I have tried talking to both and it just doesn't go far. So that worries me if they decide to stick together and go after me. Paranoia setting in cuz I don't wanna be out first round.

Ronnie seems pretty cool and we talk a good bit he wants joe/john out. Which id be ok with but idk if we can swing the votes.

Jeremiah wants to take out Eric also cuz yul wants to do it.


So the break down looks like everyone is voting john 1st and then from there if no one does anything shady

Yul, chef, heather, Jeremiah, Danni(she seems hesitant), all voting Eric.
Then you got Ronnie, Courtney(?) Eric, Julie(this what she wants), me voting for chef. Which could mean john voting for chef break the tie and we pull it off. What I'm worried about is then yul/heather/dani all mad me and juliensidnt follow the alliance and come after us.

Thought I had more time to do this I'll update it later.

I feel like I can't play the way I want to with these people I'm so scared to open my mouth with 6 epic 3 people here. They have all been pretty vocal about communicating with each other and even though we're supposed to vote Eric, I make one screw up and it could change to me. Shit for the way I'm feeling right now I'm not convinced it's not me. I actually think for there sake it would be a good move to take me out before I get a foot in.

So I did some damage control today with yul I think I have patched that relationship up after the blindside last night.

I also got to know dick today so that was good, and also had a nice convo with Danni which was needed since I haven't spent a lot of time talking to her.

Courtney worries me though since the convos with her don't go very far.

If we lose this challenge and gotta vote two more people, as it stands now it'll be Jeremiah and Ronnie as the targets by Julie and myself. I'd prefer Courtney over Ronnie but I still don't feel like I have the power to push my preferences. Trying to just seem sorta weak stratigially until I can really start working and until I get off this tribe or a swap happens I don't think I'll have that power.

Julie and I are thinking that if we get Jeremiah and Ronnie it'll leave Danni/Courtney on one side and yul/heather/ED on the other leaving us in the middle to make the decisions. It's risky but if things fall apart I'll throw Julie under the bus since she's calling the shots now. I really don't wanna have to do that at all but hey I will if need be.

If I had the power and felt like I could call the shots I would personally get Danni and Courtney out of here. These epic 3 people need to go. I prolly shoulda stuck with getting Eric out instead of Joe but o just didn't like him.

I did try and save john since I think he trusted me since I was the only one to reach out to him but I just couldn't get enough people on board.

Alrighty so it's been an interesting day.

I got home at 3:30am last night from work to find out we have to vote out two more people. I spoke to yul and found out basically Jeremiah/Courtney/Ronnie/heathers names are all on the chopping block.

As of this morning it was supposed to be Courtney and heather. But knowing Ronnie was getting votes I decided to see if I could get it off heather and onto Ronnie. It wasn't hard to do. Yul was on board and he helped talk to everyone.


Julie wants Jeremiah out but I like him and I think he's got my back. So I couldn't let her get her way.

So I THINK. The votes going to be me yul Jeremiah heather evil dick ( btw whys he special and get a blue name and not black) Julie. On Courtney and Ronnie.

Right now I think Ronnie is still doing Courtney heather. And I believe I was told Courtney is doing Ronnie heather.

Danni I'm told will cave in and do Ronnie Courtney with majority but she did tell me she was voting heather.




Now onto the kid nap, yul has been pushing mike to come here (I'm not cool with this). Where I have been pushing Michelle. Which for me is good I'll save her plus she will be a number in my corner. She will get a piņata and I believe she would give me the other. Plus she's a competitor and we need that so we. An stop voting people off...


Btw please don't have that terrible story challenge this time. I really dislike it. 😝

Ronnie is pushing rafe but that's not gonna happen.

So if all goes to plan Courtney and Ronnie will be gone and Michelle will be over here.

And all hell has broken loose, I hope my plans don't fall apart. If they do I'm afraid it won't end well for me.

So I'm happy that I didn't win that HOH. Not extremely happy dick won it cuz I have no idea where his heads at but hopefully it won't end badly for me.

I'm gonna feel him out and ultimately my goal will be to have Danni leave. At that point I'll feel good about everyone left. I think at that point I'll be sitting in a really good spot.

I also have to assume there's a swap coming soon. I feel like it makes most sense to have one more survivor round then a swap to 2 tribes of 9.

I guess I'll break down my tribe rankings:

1. Julie - her and I are
Working closely together. However she's a lot like me and let's be honest here if it comes down to a time where it's better for her game to cut me it'll prolly happen. So I gotta really watch her and know if and when this comes to and end.

2. Michelle - her and I have chatted a lot and even though it wasn't made official I feel like we are working together. Knowing what happened in 1, she will likely not go with me to the end of this game but for now I think we're good.

3. Yul - I'm pretty sure he thinks I'm his number 1 and I'll play up to that all day. I may need it down the road if Michelle and Julie both fail. Plus I wanna be the link between these strong players. We get along well and he's thinking long term.

4. Jeremiah- we have said we would watch each others back, I did mean that and a few times Julie has kinda said she wants him out and I worked that out of the plan so I could keep that word. Plus I like to have both on my side but coming at each other. I like the guy so keeping him around awhile is something I'd like to see.

5. Dick - good convos but no deals made. I'd like to trust him but I guess we will see how he plays his HOH and is forced to reveal some of his hand.

6. Heather - I like the girl but idk how much exp. she has? I feel like she's a new player and still has some stuff to learn. Or I'm just completely wrong and being played. I'd like to keep her around since I think she's a loyal person but I won't stick my neck out there to save her if she's in danger.

7 - Danni - Bye girl. ✌🏻 I hope your the one to go. We have no relationship and she's the only person I would have been very worried if they won.

8- PG - I'm sticking to that name. Haven't spoken yet we will see what I think when we get the chance.

Wow I got the short end of the stick with this swap 😓. All alone on my new tribe. I don't have not 1 person from my original tribe.

I guess the good thing is that I might end up as the swing vote. It's 3 vs. 3 then me. If it goes by former tribes then I'm sure they will both fight for my vote. However things are never that easy. Time to get to work.

Erik- he says he trusts me and will have my back from letting him know about the confessional posting thing so I hope to use that to my advantage.

Amanda- we have a decent relationship right now so I think she will be on my
Side as well. I know she nominated dolly last round so that might become an issue between them and that side.

Lmfao I made a big Boo boo. Sent a personal message in the group chat. That's a nice easy way to target me. Hopefully I didn't fuck up to bad but I'm not sure that's the case. Time to put work in and make sure it's anyone but me. And preferably not Amanda z.

Ok so as of now the plan is that me/Erik/Amanda z/Kelly/dolly are going to vote out Kim and Steven to put a huge hurting on Amanda k/Eric alliance.

Me Amanda and Erik will have to play dumb to Kim and Amanda k and just say we're fine with voting Kelly dolly incase they have enough candy to make an idol between that alliance.

Hopefully this is really the plan and it's yet another blindside.

I like Kim but if she's with them she's gotta go. I do feel bad but long term this is the better move. I would have personally preferred dolly out since talking to her is like speaking to a brick wall. But Erik think me him and her will be in power after this to take out zamanda and Kelly. I'll let him think it all day but that won't happen.

I'm freaking out right now i have that bad gut feeling that I'm about to get blindsided tonight.