Rita saying Father's Day isn't a good day for her hits a good chord with me! I don't really know the reasons for this nor should I, but I understand the day being weird. I hope she's doing alright.

Oh my goodness, I never in a million years thought I would be in the final 7 of Sausage Island! This is actually super exciting. Even if I die early here, I'm pretty damn content with how far I made it in this MASSIVE season. Yasss.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm a sociopath playing survivor games!!

I owe you all a lot of confessional time >_>

I work in a little bit and I just had a game I'm hosting start up, on top of just being back from my trip. I've been doing a lot of focusing on the game and trying to make sure everything is good there and I do think my spot to get far is good, but my possibility of winning in the end might not be...

I have SO many thoughts and I want to get them out. I'm going to try to set some time aside tonight and focus on that, and let you all know where my head is at!

I've been playing very emotionally for the last bit >_> A lot out of fear, which is ... new for me, I guess. I wasn't such an emotional player before, I don't know what happened! My only hope is that I'm interesting to some degree. I promise I'm usually better with confessionals!!! There have just been a lot of trips and stuff. I have let my game slide completely on trips before, but I really didn't want that to happen here and I'm hoping to hell it hasn't, but things are looking up.

I'm really super grateful to have made it this far and I hope you don't think otherwise. To make it to the final 7 of a 27 player game, especially Sausage Island...it's just fucking awesome. Like, one thing that I really wanted coming into the game was ... relevancy. I like being relevant, as shitty as it may sound. That's just what makes the games fun to me and I really need to remember to have more fun with it all instead of being super duper stressed, which has been hard to do.

The Hunter vote was really interesting and unique of a round. I feel like I had a large hand in it, despite it being something that everyone has been thinking about. It's a move we all knew had to be made down the line and I wanted to be the one to pull the trigger. On top of that, I kinda hope I can point to the move as me trying to atone for being shitty to some people on the jury. I know it's not making it up, but it's hopefully something.

Also, I got my first vote all game. Considering that Nick and I have been to the most Tribal Councils and only have one vote against each of us (I think that's the count), that's pretty damn good I think...I hope anyways. I think it does point to a game where I'm good at keeping the target off of me. Even this round I was never a serious target IMO.

This round, IDRC what happens. Yeah immunity is LOVELY, especially since Neal has it too. (Yes, I'm still in love with Neal, he's my rock <3), but like, Neal and I believe we're in a spot where we have good numbers going into final 7 and we are hoping that the game is largely played out a bit. The one big wrinkle is possibly Rita, who I want to work with, but it's difficult to see how she fits into my endgame plans. I think she's played wonderfully and has the most friends on that jury.

I think Neal is necessary for me in the end of the game. I don't know if the jury thinks of me as his goat, but I have a lot throughout the game to point to showing that I'm not. I'm aware that I'll have to work my butt off in FTC, but I'm prepared to do that. I will pull out all the stops, even if the jury is bashing me down with all their might. I will remain steadfast, yet malleable to their opinions. I will do my absolute best to be thoughtful and explain how every one of them was an incredibly competent game player and why they were threats to my game and my end game. One thing that I need to make sure of is that I don't insult them in anyway though. I want to make sure I'm speaking of their games in a way that gives them a lot of merit for the things they did.

I hope I've paid enough attention. Majority rules suggests I paid some decent attention. I blame losing that because I was gone for like 4 days so suck it :P

Anyways, this is a very Shórt version of all that I want to talk about and I'll discuss more later!!!!

One thing I do want to make clear is that I wasn't actually worried about the 4 Mushus being tight. I honestly felt like Hope and Woo and Rach were people that would flip on Hunter no problem when it came down to final 6, but from an outside perspective I think this looks a bit better on me (and Neal). I had already started the Hunter vote and got things going before Neal even suggested it to me though...so I'm claiming this one :P (Although I do think he was considering it heavily before the round started!!)

But yeah, the Hunter vote was partially strategic partially emotion for me. It's destressed me a lot in the game coming out of that round and I feel kinda revitalized for the last stretch :)

And I promise I will not be such an emotional mess from here on out (except FTC...no promises there)!!!

I wanna be happy and chipper and not the mess that I've been!!

I'm going to vote out Rita tonight and that sucks.

It sucks a lot, but I think I kinda have to do it, I guess. I think this is getting into "The Game's Played Out" phase, and there might be some boring rounds. I dunno. Maybe an idol will pop out, but I'm kinda thinking it's just gonna be some 5-3 Rita boot.

This vote sucks! This vote is pretty simple. I just don't want to make it complicated, especially after last round. Yeah... I guess this is just what I should do I think.

I'm going to like

just not look at the game for a bit

i told hope and woo not to split. but they did it anyways.

Cool.

Dear Hope,

Well, that happened. I'm going to miss talking to you in this game. You were my number 1, Neal was close, but you always had it. I honestly don't think I could have beaten you in the end and I was okay with that because I valued what we had more than the game, I guess. This sure as hell is a fun way to go, I hope. You were amazing and my hero this game <3 Thank you so so so much for the amazing times. Thank you for all that you've shared with me and thank you for just being there when I was an emotional mess.

(I hope this isn't sappy and stupid, I just miss her)

Hope, when the game started, we bonded a bit but things were rushed and crazy, but when we finally got together and we had the time to spend with each other, it was just amazing from there on in. I was skeptical at first, Woo pushing me to you. Shit, that's the best thing Woo has done for me (and Woo has done a lot for me this game). Everything blossomed from there. We just...feel the same on a lot of things. Maybe we don't have the same interests always (even though there are a lot of those), we just understood each others feelings and where we were going with things. You were fantastic to work with. It was just...really amazing!

You played SO fucking well, Hope. LIKE SO WELL. I think you would have won this game had this round not happened. I think you would have gone all the way down. I hope that even though this round didn't work out, that you know you played so damn good. Thank you for letting me see you through this game.

I hope we talk again soon. Whether it be me in the end or me seeing you in jury. I cannot wait :)

I'll do what I can without you. I don't think I'm a very good Survivor player, but I'll try.

Love,

Lizzie <3

This has been a busy busy busy talking day. This is where the game is really played! It's intense and kinda fun. Gets me goin' ;)

WHATS THIS I HEAR ABOUT MYSTERY POSTING IN CONFESSIONALS?!?

I NEED SOOMMA DAT SUGAR BB I PMED U SO MUCH

Well if anything, Hope going has definitely gotten Woo and I a lot closer! Same with Neal and I too, tbh, but Neal and I have always been super close so that's all okay <3

Talked to Rach a bunch today and I'm seeing what I can do there. I should talk to Rita, but I dunno. It's weird right now and I haven't brought myself to actually be able to do it >_> It's not that I don't care, I care lots! That's just a really tough conversation that is hard to bring myself to have.

Nick and Nat I haven't talked to in a round >_> YEAAAAH that's awkward as fuck. I'm going with approximately unrepairable at this point but I probably could do SOMETHING, but fuck, I can't even bring myself to talk to Rita who I still consider myself closer to than Nick or Nat.

Also, Neal and I have lowkey really disliked Nick the whole damn game and like I really just want him to go regardless of how well he would do in the end of the game >_> He gets my goose, I tell you!

its just an emotions pouring to your f2 partner kinda night