Welp. Idk what's going to happen now, no one's really responding in our tribe chat or isn't really online that much.

OR they're ignoring me, which means I did something, so fuck. How can I be already paranoid in the 3rd round?!?!?!?!?!?!?

*pokes*

ur fine

I'll do this after the challenge. Obviously, a lot has changed, and slight spoiler alert: I was probably being a bit too paranoid in my first post

CONFESSIONAL TIME!!!!!!!!

So I have a raging headache for whatever reason, which is fun lol, but we won!!!!! Let's backtrack it a bit to before the challenge with the swap...

I wanted to be exiled because of the slight numbers advantage of 5-5, instead of having the disadvantage on Sakai of 4-6. I would have loved to be exiled with Butch and Debbie too, but it might be for the best considering we might have come in with a big target on our backs. So I got exiled with Butch and Gervase, which is still pretty good for me. I wasn't willing to get swapfucked because that would've been shitty as hell. There was a point that I was going to be exiled with Sash and Gervase, until Sash stepped up to stay with that faction. This leaves Debbie. Poor, poor Debbie. She volunteered to get exiled, and then she changed her mind and didn't voice it. Then, she told me that she considered me her #1, which surprised me because I didn't think I'd be the closest to her, but I guess all that calling her a cougar and her calling me her boytoy or something like that helped. I am super scared for her though because she's with Sash. I honestly have no clue how he's going to be at this point since he was hella quiet.

Now with the swap, it's been very interesting. I want to say I'm well liked, but I can never be sure. I already knew Kat before and I think we have a good friendship. Sydney isn't really on that much, but she's sick rn so it's fair to her. I really like Eliza, she seems to be a good player. Also, we're in a Survivor showmance now :D. Idk how this happened, but yeah...we're dating. But not really because it's an ORG. Besides, Eliza is probably a guy IRL...or not, I have no clue haha. I also like Jefra too; she's definitely a challenge star and likes to hear my stories lol. Then, there's Brad. He basically spilled the beans to Kat (and a little bit to me) about two alliances on that old faction. Apparently, there was some superalliance of Ki and Sakai's that didn't include him, according to Kat. He told me that there was an alliance on Sakai that was Caleb and the girls, which is interesting since two of them are on my tribe now...I'm not sure whether or not I can really trust him though. He seems slightly shifty and slightly weird. Don't get me wrong he's nice, but he was apparently drunk when he was talking to me last night. Like he said when I said "Hey Brad!" last night, "Hey brad what's up?"

AND I'M THINKING. WUT THE ACTUAL WUT IS THIS GUY. ARE YOU HIGH, BRO?? Then, he said he was drunk and went into detail about it about his server friends giving him drinks WHEN HE IS THE DAMN BARTENDER. Doesn't that go against EVERY DAMN BARTENDER CODE TO NOT DRINK ON THE JOB?! I didn't question him though because I don't know the situation and I didn't want to alienate him. I can tell he wants to flip, but it's that trust thing...Also, he told me congrats on safety, which was...confusing. Like why would you congratulate me on being safe WHEN WE ARE BOTH SAFE. Be like, "YAY WE WON THE CHALLENGE!" or some shit like that. He confuses me.

I've barely spoken to James, and Michele hasn't been on. I'm pretty much done for the round, but I need to see that Debbie stays safe.