i just want to dethrone julia

is that too much to fucking ASK

i don't even care if i go immediately afterwards. if i can blindside julia then everything i have been through in this game so far is WORTH. IT.

life's constant struggle: do i speak to my enemies in OPEN CONTEMPT, or do i continue attempting to ingest their assholes

also i have tried talking to matty so many times and he literally hasn't responded to a single message. what the fuck

i have one opening. one. jonny isn't enough for me to break in. i fucking adore the guy but i don't know how i'm supposed to make this work for myself when caleb is atohi and spencer is so fucking far up julia's ass he's swimming in intestines

how do i convince julia to keep me? how do i convince caleb? does throwing spencer under the bus help me at all? does continuing to work spencer over help me? i don't know, i don't fucking know, this is so FUCKING exhausting. i have the next two days off work and i'm going to spend the whole time throwing myself at the wall to see if anything sticks because i can't count on Ki throwing to save myself even if kat and butch both want to do it

I JUST HATE EVERYONE BUT KAT AND BUTCH AND JONNY SO GODDAMN MUCH RIGHT NOW AND DEBBIE I GUESS BUT STILL

the more i think it over the more baffled i am over julia playing a double vote

like ok even if me/debbie/sash voted together... that's 3. there were 3 votes on debbie. was she unsure about one of the debbie voters? why vote sash if you're going to play a double vote? did she think debbie and i were both somehow playing idols? i really just don't comprehend the logic going on there

idk the point is julia burning a double vote to get sash out is fucking hilarious and stupid

Julia (3:03:12 PM): girl its okay i like you so im happy you stuck around lol i wasnt lying to you when i said you were the vote so i /hope/ you dont look at me as an enemy even though this situation seems ugly

watching your tribe throw a challenge is exhausting

Julia (7:43:13 PM): ive never lied to you yet tbh

Caleb Reynolds (10:53:19 PM): What's your type?
Dana Lambert (10:53:43 PM): Guys in general honestly hahaha. I'm not that picky :-P
Dana Lambert (10:54:17 PM): Muscular guys are the best eye candy though
Caleb Reynolds (10:55:10 PM): Are you flirting with me rn
Dana Lambert (10:55:31 PM): ;o
Caleb Reynolds (10:56:19 PM): I'd kinda like that

Dana Lambert @ 6/4/2016 0:02

Caleb Reynolds (10:53:19 PM): What's your type? Dana Lambert (10:53:43 PM): Guys in general honestly hahaha. I'm not that picky :-P Dana Lambert (10:54:17 PM): Muscular guys are the best eye candy though Caleb Reynolds (10:55:10 PM): Are you flirting with me rn Dana Lambert (10:55:31 PM): ;o Caleb Reynolds (10:56:19 PM): I'd kinda like that

oh hey baby ;)

oh my god

Sakai didn't throw

my tribe is just an inept disaster

Jonny Fairplay (1:10:27 AM): i mean i think there wasnt a throw going on
Jonny Fairplay (1:10:35 AM): caleb just fucked up HARD
Jonny Fairplay (1:10:47 AM): unless he decided to try and pull a drew christy lol
Jonny Fairplay (1:11:01 AM): julia was PISSED we lost