First of all, just did the individual immunity challenge. My internet cut out a few minutes in for a minute, and it cost me. I was 45 short of my guess. Ugh. I had it calculated so perfectly! I hate the internet sometimes.

Second, John was supposed to be the easy vote last tribal. But why the hell did he vote for me? I'm so confused on that. I've never done anything to him. I've only ever spoken to him directly once. In fact, I'm not even the one who orchestrated this tribal! But somehow, I'm the godmother of this challenge. People check with me on who to vote. I have so much power, and it's really starting to scare me- I don't want this much power. I don't want to become more of a target. Thanks, John, for that one.

This tribal won't be easy, either. I'm finally going to have to pick sides- I'm either pro-Pinkerton, pro-Rockefeller/Carnegie, or pro-Rockefeller/Vanderbilt. None of them are perfect plans- RJ keeps freaking winning immunity, and honestly, he's a huge threat and he needs to go fairly soon. Kate only wants jury, which makes it a no-brainer to keep her around as long as possible (especially because she's fantastic), but we could eliminate her now and she'd be happy too. Everyone likes JMoney, so if he makes FTC, even though I'm playing the hell out of this game, I'll lose to his charm. Most of my boys, and I hate to say this, have become pretty good goats. I'm doing most of the playing for the four of us. But that also makes them easy vote-outs if certain alliances win out. Ugh. This is so stressful. I hope a clear decision just sort of shows up. And soon would be nice.

XO, LB