I haven't posted a decent confessional/update in a while because of uni and being away at the moment but O M G GUYS (P.S. Stephen when you read this, this title is for you ;))

I think I noted quite a while ago that I intended to work with Austin/Yve/Garrett/Erik at the merge and it's come together so beautifully it's almost unbelievable. it's a miracle that we all made it here and it's even more amazing that we managed to pull Kelley in to get such a strong majority (girl is fucking awesome by the way, I've been missing out). getting rid of Stephen was SO GOOD and I'm so happy I don't have to hear him bragging about how he's gonna "save me" all the time anymore (it was really awkward because I knew the whole time that the game was completely out of his hands. Acting like a damsel in distress when I was quite the opposite was PAINFUL). \

anyway, the best thing about this alliance (we're called the BelYvers for the record) is that, for the most part, my bonds with everyone are stronger than (or at least as strong as) the bonds they all have with each other. this puts me in a super good place if anyone decides to try flipping against me, I think. I might as well do like a bit of a rundown while I'm here:


obviously my #1, and he has been since the beginning of the game. I think/hope it's reciprocal. the funny thing is that people don't seem to see how close we are, which is actually great. I suspect people think that me and Garrett are the tightest pair here, but that's not true at all. my only concern right now is that Erik's budding showmance with Garrett (lol) could affect our F2 deal, but I have faith that he's smarter than that. I've had an amazing time playing the game with him & getting to know him so far and I look forward to everything ahead. I also love him for sharing BANKS with me :') our music swap sessions pretty much make my lyf


I've been talking to Austin for a longggg time now and our relationship was definitely strengthened hugely by Katie being blindsided, given it ultimately resulted in the loss of two of his closest allies (Katie and Monica). I'm slightly worried that his close relationship with Yve could be threatening later, but I'm not gonna panic too much about it for now. his betraying me to try and "save" Monica earlier in the game is totally irrelevant, as far as I'm concerned. if anything, his coming clean about it made me trust him more.


what an adorable angel <3 like I've said before, she's super sweet and genuine and I feel really comfortable with her. I mean, it could be all a facade that she's putting on so that no one sees it coming when she brutally slashes the carotid arteries of all her former allies and laughs as they bleed to death on the ground around her, but I kinda doubt it. my only issue with Yve is I think that BECAUSE she's so genuine and sweet, she's pretty prone to being mislead by people with ill intentions. I'd like to take her as far as possible, if only because I'd never want to upset her lmao :(


hahaha my bumbling unaware sassgod <3 he's fucking hilarious and SO much fun to have around but strategically/physically he's not much of a player. I can see him making it far with or without me because of how likeable he is, but I don't think he has a shot at winning unless he's at the end with like... Sue.


omg lollll I've been missing out on so much not talking to her <3 what an angel. I probably trust her least out of everyone, but only because of lack of communication thus far. I'm pretty certain she'll stick with us now.

ughhh I have to go but I'll write more like within the next couple of days! I HAVE THINGS TO SAY ABOUT CARYN AND RORY ESPECIALLY

ETA: just remembered this but I fucking died when I got voted smartest player in majority rules? lmaooo more like "biggest fucking mess of a player"