I just had the most awkward group conversation of my life with Kelley and Erik. My concerns about them being mega-tight are now confirmed. It was difficult to watch them TIPTOE around the fact that they want me allies out - Stephen, Sue, Monica. And it was more annoying for me to have to tell them to stop sucking Sierra's dick.

I gave them my word that if we vote out Sierra tonight then Stephen and then Sue would go after.

Cuz all I got in this game is my word.


But it's CRUSH time and my word don't mean SHIT no more. Ya'll make this move with me and you're signing your own death warrants, that be the truth.

what if we go ...... Sierra / Stephen / Sue?
that's fine by me
Okay yeah I guess I can agree to that as long as we get stephen and sue out after
I'll try to mend things with Stephen tomorrow and talk to Monica + Sue
I'm a forgiving person <3
ill shake on it man
like i said all i have is my word
and we need to compromise for this to work
yeah agreed
then after sue we can look into the rest
but i dont think ppl will see us as flip flopping..
are you OK with this?
we gotta decide this now imo
yeah we'll just have to be charming and bend fencing along the way
the nature of the game says its sierra's time
and it'll be an easy vote
so what do we think
stick with us 4, ride with stephen and crew for now
sierra is a good target
yeah I will admit, more people will be happy to see her gone than will be sad
we've got your back Erik
If you guys think that's the best move for us as a group I'm down
i seriously do
there are few who want her in the game
you attaching urself to her is making u look bad
because you're associated with her
being down to vote her out will make u look very good
and she's also the connector of what i think is a solid alliance
then, we rid the game of Stephen - who i agree needs to go, i didnt even notice it until u two pointed it out to me tbh
yeah she's the glue
yes
Erik just wanting on your word
i know Caryn is 100% in for this
again - you have my word
this is a part of the compromise
Yeah...I never thought of that
that it might look bad for me to be with sierra
i want to vote with ya'll - im sick of not
hahaha me toooo
ur closely associated with her
Ok I'll give you guys my word
if u talk to anyone tomorrow and SAY ur down to vote her out
its gonna be awesome
haha
aight
lloool




That was the tail end of an hour-long conversation.



I am NOT convinced with either of them.



Gonna have to babysit the vote tomorrow. Ugh.

Again, I feel super fuckin uncomfortable about this vote. I'm just gonna have to trust that most of my "friends" won't try and backstab me this early.

Ugh ugh ugh.

An hour before the vote Caryn told me she was playing her Idol. And so I went to Erik and told him I was playing MY Idol (lol). The plan would have worked but unfortunately FUCK ME, they voted out Stephen.

More thoughts soon, it's a new week now, I need a new thread to spill my thoughts. And then, I will spill Erik's blood. FUCK HIM.