I...I just don't have words to describe that tribal. Everything worked perfectly. Not bad for a first ever tribal, I have to say. Even if I go out this round, at least I had fun and pulled off a pretty epic blindside.

So the way the votes broke down was: Me, Sierra, Garrett, and Stephen voted for Kim. Kim, Vytas, and Sue voted for Monica. Monica and Rory voted for Sue. And Yve, the most out of the loop, voted for Garrett. As far as I know, me and Stephen were the only people who knew who every person was voting for. The deciding factor here was Rory who, sort of like Tyson in Heroes vs. Villains, decided to switch his vote which gave us the majority. He didn't want to vote out Monica, and approached me to blindside Sue with him, Monica, and Stephen. Of course, Monica thought the whole time that I was voting Sue. And Rory never told her. So that blindside owes a lot to him, even if he didn't know it at the time. I'm not gonna lie, it was really satisfying to see a rollercoaster 24 hours of strategizing work out so perfectly in the end, threat eliminated, idol flushed. But immediately, it was like "oh shit....time for damage control."

First I had a short conversation with Kim. I really do feel bad. Kim, as much as I've said certain things about her in confessionals, is a really nice person. There were times when I got a little frustrated with her in the game, but I like her a lot. She thought that it was a good move for the other 3, but a terrible move for me. She said that she was never against me and that "you don't vote out someone who considers you their top ally in round 4." I explained my reasons. She has a huge reputation as a great social player and strategist and definitely isn't considered to be the most loyal person in sausage history. She was very well liked by a lot of people. Whenever I mentioned Kim to someone, people were always like "she's so nice!", "I love her", "I really trust her", etc, etc. The chaos of an unexpected 2-tribe tribal was the perfect opportunity to get lots of votes going different ways and get four people out of ten to be a majority. And lastly, yes, I could have stayed loyal to her, and she likely would have been loyal to me for a long time. But I think the longer I was associated with her, the more I would be considered secondary to her. She would've been seen as the great player, I would've been seen as the person she dragged along.

Anyway, I disagree with her about this being a bad move for me. Obviously, this has solidified the "Glamazons" (no clue where Garrett got that name) which consists of me, Sierra, and Garrett. And it has solidifed us three working with Stephen. But what I didn't entirely expect was how this has seemed to put me in a really good position. I told Monica about Kim talking shit about her and that this was all an elaborate plan to save her. I think I've actually proven that I'm working with her by doing this. Vytas was a little more difficult. He was upset about being left in the dark, but I explained everything to him, told him the reasons, gave him proof that Kim was planning on blindsiding him soon. And he seemed to take it relatively well. Sue was initially very upset, but I talked to her today and seem to have somewhat smoothed things over. Rory was confused, but he wasn't that upset and said that he still really wants to work with me.

The other great thing about this is that it has turned Monica even more against Vytas/Sue and Vytas/Sue even more against Monica. On top of that, Sierra is turning out to be waaay more emotional than I thought and is starting to burn bridges with people like Sue (who was really upset about the vote) and Katie (who leaked info to Kim last round). And then I'm swooping in to get on these people's good sides, apologize, admit my faults. This move has basically revealed myself to be more of a strategic threat than some people might have initially thought. So now I have to avoid being labeled a threat. And I'm doing that by being humble and clearly explaining my reasons for voting Kim, so it doesn't seem like I'm gonna blindside everyone because it's fun. And I'm definitely not planning on any crazy blindsides for a while. Partly because that was really stressful. But mostly because it would not be smart this early. My plan for at least the next few rounds is to really go with the flow, let other people decide who they want to vote, give other people some power.

Sierra's starting to be a little......emotional. Katie was giving information to Kim that she got from Sierra last round, and ever since she found out Sierra's been really.....irrationally angry. Apparently they've been very close this entire game and Sierra felt really betrayed. She got really angry at Katie and was saying that she ruined their friendship or something. And then she sent me this long apology that Katie sent to her which was just....really...I disagree with her doing that. I'm sure Katie didn't want me seeing that. And it's just really frustrating seeing people take this game so seriously. It's a game. It's meant to be fun. And getting angry at people and making things personal just sucks the fun out of it. In my opinion at least.

So I talked to Katie and I basically apologized on behalf of Sierra. And we had a good talk about having good sportsmanship in this game basically. We see eye to eye on this. That this game becomes less fun when people can't dissociate the game from real life. And it's not easy, I'm not saying I'm perfect either. But I know that that's the best thing to do. So if I get blindsided by people I trust and like, that's not gonna change anything in terms of friendships outside the game. And I hope that they feel the same way if I betray them in this game.

Owning bitches.

THIS TIE UGGGHHHHH. This is what happens when you don't go with your gut in this game. MY GUT WAS RIGHT. And this could've worked out perfectly. Literally perfectly. But I was like, "No you can't go against the grain here, you'll make yourself too much of a target."

For anyone wondering, a tie was NOT supposed to happen. Just in case Vytas played his idol for Sue (which was already the most absurd thing ever. It was not gonna happen) people decided to split the votes. It was supposed to be 4 Sue, 3 Vytas. Well first, I need to mention that at the beginning of this round I wanted Rory gone because I thought people would easily get on the get returnees out bandwagon. I could also sense that I really lost his trust in voting out Kim. Well guess who was the person who flipped and fucked up the split? RORY. He wanted to get Vytas' idol out. So part 1, my gut was right.

Part 2. This afternoon an idea crossed my mind. I didn't want to lose another tribe mate because I really like Vytas and Sue and because possibly going to tribal with Sangoma would be a 5-3 difference which is a little scary. When I heard that they were gonna split the votes, I thought that it could be the perfect chance to blindside one of Garrett, Stephen, and Sierra's numbers in either Yve or Rory. A very risky move. To be honest, I probably made the right choice in not doing it. But Vytas and Sue were down to vote anyone on that tribe. All I needed was Monica. And she convinced me that it was a bad idea. I thought it could be great. It would have bonded our tribe together as a unit. Which we desperately needed. It would have earned me the favor of Vytas and Sue, adding two more numbers for me and taking out a number for other people. And now that we know how the vote went down...we could have taken out Rory and Garrett and Sierra would have seen that he flipped and would've been more likely to forgive me. PART 2 MY GUT WAS RIGHT.

I still probably made the right decision though. That move seemed too endgamey, like Natalie voting out Alec or something. But I need to trust ma gut mo'.

Seriously tho. Sue is like a cat with 9 lives. And I am not a cat person :|

Why not? Cats are great.

Cats are just like....not dogs.
http://www.buzzfeed.com/rachelysanders/dogs-rule-cats-drool#.jkGK64mZ4
This actually made me like cats more....so thanks SHAWNA!!!!

Jkjk <3

Those were cute. I lol'd at almost every one.

If I had to describe Sue's gameplay in one cat gif it would be this: