fuck i'm too drunk to try the challenge and i have work tomorrow hmmmm

i kept track of everyone's vote count so i'd know who to beat but now i'm like umm huh ehhhh

will me not trying hard enough in the challenge be my DOWNFALL? stay tun3d

and now i'm hungover! it's funny how that WORKS.

this endgame is going so excruciatingly slow omg.

austin wants to play it up to garrett about like him struggling to do this.

but it's like omg i can't wait for this all to become a reality

Austin and I are getting so cocky right now. Like I can not imagine us NOT being the final 2. it will be a travesty if otherwise.

I could easily see all of this backfiring on me.

Like Austin realizing that I will 1. crush him and 2. not be as bitter as fucking crazy yve will be.

But I think he respects me and our relationship enough to keep us going

Additionally, I think Garrett enjoys me (though he was shocked I did not want to be called a "hot slut") and understands that Yve is a threat.

It all seems 2 good 2 be true. But then again, that's how this entire game has felt. (except that Kim-vote week)

I'm just getting restless and like freaking out as per usual.

I've been playing this game longer than I've had my current job. It feels weird that it is ending. Also it feels weird that it is ending so well within my terms. If this Yve vote goes ... I can't imagine Garrett taking Austin nor Austin taking Garrett. Honestly, I feel like a Hatch.

As my first legit ORG, it has been kind of a crazy ass experience. I've been trapped in this confessional forum for almost 7 weeks now. It like BLOWS my mind that fourteen other people have been voted out and they have done podcasts talking about me and what we've done here. And PW's have discussed it all. And I'm just still in this bubble.

I think I'm going craaAAAAAAAZzyyzyzy. I just can't sleep. i'm so excited. I'm into deep.

FINAL THREE!!!!!!

ugh I do not know how to do this rites of passage without being overtly bitchy or overtly presumptuous that I'm making the f2. WHERE IS THE BALANCE? where it the line with me?

FINAL
FUCKING
TWO

i actually DID IT

GIRLFRIEND! GJ! <3

#IAmNotAStalker

lmfao I just came out to my hosueamtes like laughing maniacally about how i made it to the f2

and they ere stunned but excited but intrigued

i mentioend the podcasts

haha this is all so surreal

and then i tried to talk to them about who is hold take to the f2

and that was just
a
bridge
too
far

ur cracking me up

Sydney Wheeler @ 6/4/2015 22:23

ur cracking me up

i cracked myself up. i stopped explaining it like 5 times cuz i couldn't stop laughing.

austin and i are having a really gushy heart 2 heart

hahahah my housemate just like turned to me and was like "have you decided yet?"