Alright, my last confessional was simultaneously super cocky, super late, and super fucking sloppy so...this one is going to kind of make up for it I hope! Sorry if I'm not posting as many as everyone else, I'm not much of a spontaneous person lmao. I know Monica just like word vomits all over the place (or so she says), but I guess that emphasizes our different styles of play: she's more in the moment and I'm reserved and think things through. And organized. Which she is definitely not. Anyways, let's get to it :nerd: (that smiley is my absolute fave for whatever reason <3)
Anyways, this challenge was one I ~should~ have been prepared for and was absolutely not. I mean, I got a decent amount right (many from guessing), but overall I knew that it would be Sierra vs. Caryn. Simply because those two are the types that would take copious notes of everything. That's obviously not a bad thing, so kudos to them. I also proved myself an extreme idiot by getting one wrong because I wrote "Endless Pain" over "Endless Pains" which.....fuck my life. I would have tied Yve for 3rd and who knows what would have happened then lmao. Either way, it ended up being no big deal and perhaps even made me look like a giant idiot, which is good because I'm not....I was just in this instance :P
Alright, I'm gonna go ahead and do another rundown of the 5 other people left in the game. This time, it's gonna be even more thorough and organized and I'm doing it in order of my preferred boot order:
6th Place: 
Our Relationship: I genuinely do love talking with Caryn. Early on in this game, she was my absolute favorite person and had she not been such an awkward, noncommittal weirdo this entire time I would absolutely have been on board with working with her long term. Unfortunately, she got lazy with all her challenge wins and was supremely awkward towards me for a long period of time so I have no real loyalty towards her. But still, outside of Monica she is the person I enjoy talking with the most in this game. She's hilarious, and her All-Star spot is guaranteed.
Why I Have Her Here: The girl is a major physical threat, plain and simple. If we let her stay this week, she's going to win challenges again no doubt in my mind. And as much as she SAYS she is not a threat in the end, that isn't true and I know at least Rory/Sue would consider giving her votes. On top of that, she ain't take me to the end no matter what, so she is not necessary to my plans. Plus, she has at least some pull over Monica. However she does make some good points. For Sierra, Garrett, and Monica....keeping Caryn might be good. They should probably get out Yve or I. But she's made herself such a huge threat that there's no way that happens at this point.
Could She Win: Absolutely! Especially if she starts pulling strategic moves and gets an actual resume under her belt. The weakness in her argument this week is that she claims that "she has done nothing but win challenges". BUT if she survives this week then automatically she has a move under her belt that she can cite for the jury. I'm going to be saying this to everyone so they know that keeping her ensures a loss for them. She is the ultimate threat in this game, and if she makes the end I have no doubt she'd be a tough person to face off against. She's also super likable! Sorry Car-Bear!
5th Place: 
Our Relationship: Ooof Sierra. Somehow she is both the most and least selfish person in this game. She's the most selfish because EVERYTHING in this game relates back to her and her emotions. Whatever she feels is the gospel truth, and you are expected to pander to her feelings and make her feel like she's right. She also wants you to give her all this info without giving much back. It's infuriating to talk with her on that level because it's lots of pandering and ego stroking. BUT on the flip side of the coin she gives me every indication that she's perfectly ok going to the end with Yve and I and just letting us win....lmao. She talks constantly about how she can't stand Caryn or Monica and wants them to not make it, and how Garrett and her aren't even close. I normally wouldn't believe her on many of these fronts because they are such stupid arguments but like....she's been like this for so long now that like I really think she trusts Yve and I? Idk, she's a conundrum. I like her one minute, not the next.
Why I Have Her Here: Regardless of whatever loyalty she has for Yve and I, I have pretty much none towards her. She's the biggest outward "threat" left after Caryn at least as far as jury and challenges go. Not based on merit, but rather the false perception all game that she is some major power player. She made one good move against Kim, and since then has been pretty much a lame duck ever since. She wanted Sue out for weeks with no success, and last week could have made a move but just rolled over. STILL, she is close to Yve which worries me. So, she needs to go after Caryn so I can split those two up. I worry she could become a challenge steamroller, but like....I think we can beat her?
Could She Win: Ummm....probably? I think if she gets to the end it's gonna take some strategic moves for her to win. If she just challenges her way to the end then I'd say she doesn't have as good of a chance tbh. Unless she is next to Garrett in the end.
4th Place: 
Our Relationship: Of the five players left, Garrett is the person I have probably the least close relationship. To be fair, everybody probably has the least close relationship to Garrett because he's on a diametrically opposed times to the rest of us. So it's tougher for him to make real bonds. Still, I've tried to make an effort with him but ultimately he just peeves me out more than anything. He's very egotistical in most of our convos still, and it's often hard to get him to talk about anoyone but himself. ALSO, I've been hearing that apparently he called me a "jury threat" to Monica. Which....I am LOL. But that doesn't endear me to keeping him.
Why I Have Him Here: Honestly, Garrett is someone I could see me taking to Final 3, Final 4, or Final 5. Like, I'd consider voting him out at any time. He's already laying some groundwork for me to be a target in the coming weeks, so it just depends on immunity wins. He's never going to take me to the end, so I'd probably want him gone here where I have Yve/Monica backing me up. But if for some reason Sierra wins immunity next week I'd love to take him out in 5th. Hell, even if she doesn't win I'd love it. Still, he's the most nebulous as far as where I want him out when compared to the other 4. He could go at any time and I'd be fine.
Could He Win: I'm very skeptical. He's been a sheep in every vote and hasn't made many moves tbh. I think his only case is that he got a ton of votes? He's probably the person with the least opportunity to win?
3rd Place: 
Our Relationship: I still think she trusts me implicitly. I've done a good job (I think?) of managing her this entire game. I know her tics and moves, so I think I can handle her any which way. She's stubborn and flighty, and likes to think that she is making the move and not really give you any wiggle room. So I'm often asking leading questions in order to get her on the same page as me. But ultimately, she is someone I genuinely think wants to go to the end with me. My only worries about her are 1) Her relationship with Sierra. They are super close on a personal, genuine level I think. But I don't know how close considering it's Yve and she's one all over the place person. #2 is that if for some reason we get to Final 3 with Monica I'm worried if she wins immunity Monica will spill all the beans and Yve wouldn't take me to a Final 2. Still, I think I could work around crazy ass Monica so I'd prefer Yve in the Final 3. But I'm not opposed to making a move on her earlier.
Why I Have Her Here: Because I don't want to go to Final Two with her because it means that Monica is gone. Monica is my goat/partner, someone who if we get to the end I can clearly point to and be like: I controlled her. She did all these moves that were awful for her to help my game. With Yve I can't necessarily say the same. So for me....she needs to go sometime before Final Two. If it's a Final 4, I'd say she goes at 4 and I take Garrett/Monica to the end. Sorry Yvey :/
Could She Win: YES! I'm starting to think that just maybe Yve is my biggest competition for the win. She has made a lot of shrewd moves that could help her (that also helped me). We are definitely the two power players of this season, swinging back and forth. So she has tons of evidence that could get her votes.
2nd Place: 
Our Relationship: You know I love her <3 But there's a new addition to our relationship that is really going to help me. And that is her being an absolutely crazy person and me trashing her to everyone about it behind her back. Not in a mean, vindictive way, but just making sure that she can't work with anyone else in the foreseeable future. Don't get me wrong though, she's awesome <3
Why I Have Her Here: Because I really think I could beat her in the finals. I think the way this game has gone, yes her working with me was a big thing but ultimately I used her more than she used me. I got my way with most every vote, while she was being drug behind me for good periods of that. Also, I think she's probably the only person who would unequivocally take me to the end. The only person she might betray me for is Garrett, which is why I want him out at 4/5 tbh.
Could She Win: I think so, but not sitting next to me. She could beat Garrett and even maybe Sierra. And possibly Yve even. But I think next to me, I really don't think so. And that sounds super cocky or whatever, but like....I got my way in our "partnership" like 9/10 times. So...sorry, Moni.
Alright, I want to clarify that I'm not saying this order is GOING to happen. I'm not even sure if I'll make it past this week, given how hard Caryn has been campaigning. But this is what I'd like to happen right now. Of course things can change and shift in the coming days depending on a turn of events. Who knows, maybe Yve/Sierra are plotting against me this entire time. Idk! But this is my ideal scenario at this time. So we'll see if I can make it happen.
Sausage Island 9: The Serengeti
> Confessionals > Austin's Confessional > Episode 12: *Obligatory Dragon Slayer Reference*
