Sorry this was super late. My bad, my bad.

Oh y'all this round. This round is where I feel like just maybe. JUST MAYBE....I cleared my path to the end? MAYBE. I really hate being that cocky guy that like says "I got this, these fools have no chance". But the way this round went? So smoothly and without any bumps, despite there being plenty of chances for it? I feel like I got this and these fools have no chance. It won't be easy to do, but I feel super confident that I will at LEAST make like....Final 4? And probably Final 3? Idk, these feel like famous last words (my biggest fear), so Imma gonna not mention this ever again but: I GOT THIS SHIT. #CockyBastard

Anyways, let's start with the challenge. The challenge was pointless. Caryn solved all of them before any of us solved one. She gave Monica/Yve the codes. And that was that. Of course once again, #ESTBias occurred because the challenge was just at an awful time for me. SO yes, I cry #ESTBias whenever I lose :P So yeah, Caryn won which kind of sucks because I would have loved for this week to have gone her/Kelley leaving. But, what can you do?

Alright, let's get down to the juicy part of this week: the political intrigue (saying that makes me feel like this is Game of Thrones, lmao). So this week was an absolutely crucial, insane week that ended up being secretly a walk in the park. At the start of this week, I wanted to get out Kelley/Garrett. Kelley had not told me about the plan to take me out last week, and Garrett was all around annoying. I would have preferred Sierra to go probably, simply because she's a bigger threat then either of those two and she's a whiner to boot. But I quickly realized that going to the Final 6 with a 3-2-1 breakdown was not a good idea, and would be giving Monica too much power. I WILL give Yve some credit and say that she was vehemently against this from the start. For different reasons, but ultimately she was right. THERE I SAID IT. YVE WAS RIGHT. As much as it pains me. Still, I don't think going with the five would have been so bad. Simply because Monica seems ultra willing to betray Caryn/Sue when necessary for me.

SO. I realized that the best move for me this week was to take a shot at one of each of the two "sides": the Golden Girls and the BelYvers. For the Golden Girls, Caryn was immune so it had to be Sue. I would have preferred to keep Sue around simply because she doesn't give a shit about challenges, but the other option was Monica and that's not happening. For the BelYvers I decided to vote out Kelley, because she's among the shadier people in the game simply due to the fact that the girl doesn't talk to anyone and I have no connection with her. Because of Sierra's idol, she was immune and Garrett is someone I at least have SOME kind of relationship with, so he gets to stay. However, Yve's plan was to simply blindside everyone and take out Kelley/Sue without telling EITHER side about it. Um.....that's dumb. Because then in theory we have everyone pissed at us and they could all turn on us. SO, I wanted some insurance so I decided that I was going to bring Sierra and Garrett in on "the plan" and let them know that we were going to vote out Kelley AND Sue. This way, when the dust settled they would feel more in on the plan and less like their were blindsided by us AGAIN. It was a risky move, because in theory Garrett/Sierra could very easily go to Caryn/Sue/Kelley and be like "hey, let's just vote these fools out". But for whatever reason, I felt like they wouldn't. Caryn was too much of a threat, there was too much bad blood between Sue/Sierra idk.

Honestly, this round was kind of crazy easy. I spent the entire 24 hours stressing hardcore about what Sierra/Garrett might do and if they would tell Kelley or play their idol on her and...they didn't do shit? I don't know WHY this was so easy, but it was. I guess people are just much, much more trusting of me/Yve than I thought. Because this is straight up insane that a double vote would go so smoothly without someone trying to do SOMETHING. Not even Kelley, who I was awkward and weird to the entire day tried to flip anything. Bizarre stuff. It's like spooky easy.

AND now I'm in an amazing spot. I have tight alliances with Monica & Yve that I feel super solid about. Caryn remains enemy #1 from everyone as soon as she loses a challenge. Sierra is constantly saying how much she loves and trusts me, even though I've never once proven that I feel the same lmao. And Garrett is a bit of a social pariah who has no connections in the game and very little leverage. So like....I can't see myself going at 6. Or 5. The only way that would happen honestly is if Yve OR Monica betray me. That's the only way, and I really really can't see it from either of them. Yve thinks we are practically lovers lmao. And Monica thinks I'm a pushover who has made no moves (oh how wrong she is).

Speaking of Monica, she has officially become the person I want to take to the Final Two this week. If it's a Final 3 I'd love to sit next to Monica &....Garrett I guess? Idk. Anyways, Monica was having some kind of mental breakdown this week. She has been burning bridges left and right, most notably in the lead up to the vote where she was ultra rude to Kelley for absolutely no reason. I have a hard time seeing Kel voting for her now. But mostly with SIERRA. Holy shit Monica snapped. It was the night before the vote and I was bombarded with IMs from LITERALLY EVERYONE coming to me about the vote. And after awhile Sierra starts talking about how weird and bizarre Monica is being. Apparently Monica invited her to some group thread and started doing some like jam poetry about the future and looking right and god knows what else. I'm explaining this very poorly because it's mostly second hand stuff but like....it was freaking weird and hilarious. Good to their confessionals for a better explanation lmao.

Anyways, on top of that Monica insisted on doing everything possible to freak out Sierra into playing her idol. This includes openly mocking her, saying that there is an alliance between Monica/Garrett/Kelley (lol wtf), and just constantly telling her that they are Final Twos. What Monica fails to realize is that she has slowly become the goat of the season, just for me. The entire time that Monica is doing all this I'm in Sierra's ear calling her crazy, and a goat, and a troll. I'm not doing it intentionally and I'm even telling Monica some of the things I say so she doesn't get too pissed but...Monica is so clueless that she's becoming someone who nobody would vote for. It's not only because of her troll-like moves, but also because of her lack of strategy since the merge. Every single move that has been made since the merge except mayyyybe the Erik vote has been in my best interest and not hers. Stephen and Rory were both closer to her. She shouldn't have given up Sue so easily, and could have swayed something a different direction without pissing me off if she really tried. And Kelley even is more MY enemy then hers considering the awkwardness between me/Kel after the vote. So even though she feels included in all these things, it serves my best interests and not hers.

This is also why I can't go to the end with Yve, because Yve and I have both made these decisions "together". So she could get credit for a lot of them even though in a lot of instances I've done most of the legwork. Such as the Stephen, Erik, and even in a lot of ways this vote. So I wouldn't get blown out of the water by Yve but a win is less secure. Either way, ideally both of these ladies would be in at least the Final 4 with me because I'm pretty sure both trust me impicitly. Next week we need to lose Caryn or Sierra. Then things will get interesting. But this week everything turned up Austin :smug: