7/28/2014



Well that sucked... game on...

7/29/2014


Ken...

Ken was hands down my best friend here. I love him so much as a person and I couldn't have asked for a better ally during my time out in Morocco. Without him, I feel really alone for the first time in this game... I know that he'd want me to be strong and fight, but it's not gonna be an easy road from here on out. I'm definitely not gonna give up though. I'm a scrapper and I'm plucky and I'm good at rallying back against tough odds. It would just be so much more comforting if he was still here... he was the only person who I knew that I could trust 100%. Now I can only rely on myself... all bets are officially off.

7/29/2014

So I'm down but I'm definitely not out. I work the best when I'm backed into a corner and if these boys think I'm gonna just lay down and die then they're sorely mistaken.

I've been thinking a lot and I'm not convinced that going to the end with both of the remaining Dadès would be such a bad idea. At this point, I think that it's likely they'll end up splitting their guaranteed jury votes, and if I play my cards right, I could potentially wrack up a majority... I love Yul as a person, but my only allegiance was just blindsided and right now, I'm playing for me.


Commence Operation Honey Badger!

7/30/2014

So Jon is telling me that I'm gonna be okay and that Yul is the target, but you can never really be sure... I need to win this Immunity Challenge if I want any guarantee that I'm gonna survive this round.

7/30/2014

Dammit! Yul won... the one thing that I didn't want to see happen, happened... I really think that my best shot to win was against Charlie and Jon and now, I'm probably the target anyway. This reminds me of in Survivor Palau, Tom won Immunity at the Final Four and Jenn really needed him to lose in order for her to stay... she got a tie that round though, and maybe I can too if I reveal to Yul that he was the target? Ugh, I just have to tread carefully; Yul might not even care at this point and I still trust Jonathan way more...

If I were Yul, I'd totally want to go to the end with both of the remaining Dadès ... it's the smartest thing that he could do. They're probably gonna split their votes and then Yul will probably win. I think that if Charlie does somehow end up going, I could definitely have a chance at scooping up a majority of the jury votes, but it's not looking good for me right now. It's just so discouraging, to come all this way and then realize that my number is probably up... deep down I know that I should be proud of myself for having come this far, but it honestly breaks my heart. I played the hell out of this game and I'm not ready for my torch to be snuffed... I mean who ever really is, but yeah...

7/31/2014

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Jonathan Libby: well, i'm probably gonna cry voting for either of you. so there's that. Yul and I are not agreeing. Kelly Shinn: Yul wants me? Jonathan Libby: yeah Kelly Shinn: I mean it’s smart of him he prob knows you and Charlie will split votes Jonathan Libby: yep. Kelly Shinn: i feel like you have a shot idk who knows though, if charlie is on the jury he might be pissed I don’t know how he’d react Jonathan Libby: i don't want either of you on jury i want you both by my side at the finale. but whatever the verdict is i'll be honest with whoever i'm voting for and i would hope the same would happen if my name's being tossed out as well but people think im a goat so it's probably not :p haha Kelly Shinn: i mean i don’t think you’re a goat I’m just way closer with you Ken has been at the bottom of my boot list this entire game until now you were hands down the person i was closest with after him idk, I just don’t want you to get Lane’d obviously though you have to just go with whats best for you and you’re not immune Jonathan Libby: ugh i hate this Kelly Shinn: <3 Jonathan Libby: I'm sorry, Kelly, but I've played a loyal game so far and it's only right for it to come full circle. Charlie and I have technically been alligned longer, so I have to keep him. I truly, truly hate this. Like this is the worst thing ever, and I hope you don't hate me. And, hell, if you concoct a plan and I end up going home because I'm telling you my decision so early, then so be it. I just wouldn't feel right not letting you know. Kelly Shinn: :( Jonathan Libby: :'( Kelly Shinn: i could never hate you no matter what happens this game has been a blast so there’s definitely nothing that would change your mind? i don’t want to bother you i want the last few hours to be civil i’m not gonna bitch and moan and have a fit Jonathan Libby: girl you never bother me. but i don't think so. i mean minds can always change, who knows. Kelly Shinn: <3

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Charlie Herschel: I am so frustrated Kelly Shinn: me too that was hard Charlie Herschel: I'm like really upset because of that last puzzle I was doing well until that stupid shit Kelly Shinn: yeah i was like three pieces away from finishing it when yul posted it was so hard not trying to call you out at TC, just had to say it, I mean I can’t just lay down and die, I do love you though Charlie Charlie Herschel: #shade I get it :-P Kelly Shinn: haha not even! i mean all i’m saying is a compliment and the truth Charlie Herschel: I'm a lovable, cuddly pumpkin pie Kelly Shinn: i mean you are a little fluffernutter pfeffernoose cuddle bug Charlie Herschel: *blushes* shucks I wish we didn't have to do this, darlin' Kelly Shinn: it sucks i love all you guys Charlie Herschel: ditto it's a shitty situation

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Yul Kwon: woo, final challenge Kelly Shinn: yes! good luck yul! Yul Kwon: thanks, you too! Kelly Shinn: good job bar babe* Yul Kwon: Thanks!! :) Kelly Shinn: wheres your head at? if you’re gonna vote for me you can at least tell me right? you’re immune Yul Kwon: I'll be honest with you I have no idea. For me it's between you and charlie at this point and I haven't decided. I'll tell you straight up if I vote you Kelly Shinn: okay so can you tell me what your reservations are? about bringing me over Charlie? I mean I’ll respect whatever you do, but I’m not gonna go down without a fight lol Yul Kwon: I can't blame you, I'd fight till the end as well. I think you both have some gauranteed votes in the jury and I'm trying to think who I can beat at the end and who's a bigger threat at ftc Kelly Shinn: oh wow, I didn’t think I’d have much jury support haha do you think you needed this immunity? Yul Kwon: Yea definitely, I think I would have been the target this round It's hard to say to be honest, because I"m not sure where everyone else's head was at Kelly Shinn: yeah so are you thinking what i was thinking that jon and charlie would split their guaranteed votes? Yul Kwon: What do you mean? Like the jury votes? Kelly Shinn: yep Yul Kwon: Eh, I'm not sure really how the votes are going to be in the end. I'm just not sure who I could beat in the end Kelly Shinn: i just don’t get what makes people think i’m a threat i mean i didn’t take Ken out maybe i’m grasping at straws I mean I’m not stupid I know this isn’t looking good for me Yul Yul Kwon: I mean I think you and charlie are very similar in terms of this game. You both had idols, you both had control (you more than him imo) and you both are loved and have gauranteed votes going into the jury. I don't blame you not taking out ken, same with the marissa vote. That just shows how loyal you were and I think that will be reflected if you make it to the end Kelly Shinn: so you think i’ll actually benefit from being loyal except i won’t lol cuz i’m about to be the final juror Yul Kwon: I'm saying if you did make it to the end Kelly Shinn: ya i get what you mean I’m not like arguing just like laughing to myself about the irony of coming all this way, and then realizing i have like no shot Yul Kwon: Right, you shouldn't be so hard on yourself. I think you played really well, you were never going to go before ken. I know I might not be helping much but don't sell yourself short Kelly Shinn: i always felt like people just thought i was ken’s bitch Yul Kwon: Nah, I saw how you played your own game. He was like your meatshield People could say I was a lot of people's bitch this game as well

FML, LOL. I'm actually laughing to myself because I mean... what? Is this really happening right now? I can't even, please someone pinch me and tell me that I'm dreaming... I'm screwed aren't I? Ah! This sucks so much.

Well I guess that's that then... just giving Yul a little pep talk before I go. I think that he has a chance actually. At this point, my vote will likely go to him or Jonathan, but I'm not dead set against Charlie either. It's surreal that this is probably it for me... I hope that I didn't let anybody down. I honestly tried... I tried so hard... there was no convincing them though; they weren't budging. I'll make my Final Words once it's all official.