I'm still here!

Wish all the votes could've been shown, but I'm pretty sure I was turned on 7-4. A new chapter in the game begins for me, I need to find a new home right now, I'm game homeless right now.

The Bill/Eddie partnership is supposedly back on for the long haul. It was a lot easier than I thought, Eddie seemed to have everything I said about him, and all I really had to do was what Zach did with Frankie, I apologized and told him I almost immediately regretted the decision. Did I really? Eh, maybe not as quickly as I made it seem, but going after him wasn't the right choice, not at that time. He was the one connection I had on Dades, and he was pretty honest with me throughout the game, I was really just pissed about how open he was about are alliance and it pissed me off to the point where I didn't give a crap if he left. Now, he's basically all I've got. I'd love to live in a fantasy land where I could iust roll this out until 7 and then flip with something like Me/Eddie/JR/filler, but something's gonna happen to screw that up, it's inevitable. I don't think going to the end with Eddie is a great idea. People like him, and right now he's got all 3 of the jury's votes, I'm almost sure of it, Marisa and Hayden were his original end-game partners, he basically admitted that I was Plan C, but I'll accept that, he was mine too pretty much. I'd like to sit at the finals with people like JR and Yul, who seemingly don't have that many connections and would make for an easier win, because I never really do well at Finals explaining my game. If the jury feels the other two didn't really do anything, I may not have to try as hard.

My name is worth nothing in this game.

True things, untrue things, anything with my name on it seems to get spread around like wildfire. Do these people not know how to lie, do they just not respect me and that if I see them as an ally they should keep some things a fucking secret? I don't do jack shit, and I have Charlie going around saying who my targets are. I make an alliance with Marisa, say that we should watch out for Kelly/Ken, she goes and tells Kelly. I make an alliance with Eddie and he goes and literally tells everybody in the world that we have an alliance and what I have told him about people in the game. Uh, are you retarded? It's like these people don't even watch the game.

"Hey everybody, me and Bill are in an alliance, and I know a SHITLOAD about your tribe!!!! Just wanted to let everybody know! Again, me + Bill = alliance. Remember that, OK? Thanks!!!"

When in hell was that ever the right thing to do? I don't care if you've got 3 idols and you're everybody's best friend, when has anybody ever done that? These people are legitimately too damn honest, this is probably the most honest game I've played in, I might actually be the LIAR in this group. WTF??? I seriously do not know who I could align with, I need to set Eddie straight and teach him to shut his mouth about some things, but I doubt he listens, and I bet at this point EVERYBODY knows the alliance is back on and I'm probably digging my own grave continuing to try and shove it off to the side like it really isn't anything.

It should be pretty clear that any relationship that me and Eddie had is supposedly broken since I brought up his name last round, but all the Sebou people seem to be hung up on us being something before. I don't get it, but whatever.

And J'Tia is trying to give me a 500 immunity bid right now. Idgaf what people will think about it, I just wanna be safe this round.

I was gonna go tell the Sebou people about how J'Tia just offered me immunity, but then I realized it was completely pointless. If they took anything I said to them to heart, they'll come to me and ask about it, if they want to be two-faced, and still come to me like we're buddies while they worry about me behind my back, whatever, Idgaf. Immunity is great this round because I think everybody is a little confused about where they stand and anybody could go home. J'Tia haas come and said she's willing to take Eddie out right now, because he's a huge challenge threat, and Jonathan was only good in the last challenge. Not buying it, she just wants Eddie out because he's not at all apart of her plans. Eddie is an idiot and wants Betsy/JR out, why, I don't know, his strategy is just weird. Right now, I don't really care who goes home, I'd rather not write Eddie or Yul's name down because I've reinstated deals with the both of them, as well as Betsy, because I think we're close to putting something together. Other than that, anybody's fair game.....except me because immunity, teehee, thanks J'Tia.

Betsy is asking me if I'd truthfully want to get Eddie out, as his name is being thrown around. If Eddie has actually gone and told people we re-aligned, basically right after I told him not to.....

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I'm gonna try and just lay low and take a name for this vote. It seems like whenever I open my mouth bad things happen, so I'm just gonna shut up and go with the flow. Eddie and Charlie seem to be the names getting thrown around, with more people siding with Eddie, whatever, I don't care, him leaving my actually help whatever target is on my back slowly disappear. Either way, I'd be getting rid of one of the heads of the snakes that are making my life in this game miserable.

Ugh, I hate the situation I'm in right now.

The Dadès people think they have me and that I'll vote with them to get Kelly out.

The Sebou people think they have me and that I'll vote with them to get Eddie out.

Even though I'm pissed off at Kelly right now, there's no real reason to get rid of her right now.

Even though I'm pissed of at Eddie right now, there's not that many reasons to get rid of him right now.

Eddie is probably the better choice to eliminate right now. I really don't like any of these Dadès people, Yul and Betsy are the two people I like the most and I think they want Eddie out. Eddie thinks I've just rejoined him as an ally, but he's a threat. He wants to make moves, get that nice resume, and that's why even if I stay with him, he's not gonna sit in the finals. Getting either of them out is just stupid right now. Really, J'Tia should probably go, but I'm saving that push for next round. I don't know what I'm going to do, but I'm either gonna blindside Eddie or piss the Sebou people off, and I really need to talk to JR and Betsy.

I'm voting Eddie because with all the targets proposed, it really is my best move. No more rumors, no more speculation, he's gone, and I don't have to worry about bad words circling about me. I just don't feel like I can trust the guy, not with what he's already done the 1st time around, and I feel like I've got much better allies on this side with Betsy and Yul. After this, I've got to start taking more of a leader role. I really don't have much to tell the jury if I were to sit in the finals. I need to start driving the alliance bus and telling people what to do, no more going with the flow or shutting up when I'm basically overruled. Got to start doing things on my own terms and getting out who I want.

The Hit List:

1. Charlie- Quiet....too quiet. Deceptive, challenge threat.
2. J'Tia- Crazy, strategic threat, public plan that really doesn't include me in the end
3. Jonathan- J'Tia's partner, good in challenges.
4. Kelly/Ken- Likely partnered, Kelly was willing for me to go.