Marisa is a hateful bitch. I don't know if I can even pretend to like her right now. She has completely cemented herself to the Sebou Sluts and it actually stings that she thinks pouring salt into the wound is the best way to go.

I really wish I had listened to Hayden. None of us knew who they were going to vote for, but he seemed to think it was someone who wasn't a challenge threat and who the idol would least likely be played on. Well, he was right and I am left feeling terrible because for a split second I did think about using it on him, but I thought about what the others would think about that if I did, and decided it was in my best interest to use it on myself.

It was useless, but at least with the uncertainty I felt I used it to save myself and get me one step further. I'm sure I've ostracized myself for the move I made and I will have a lot of making up to do with Eddie and Jonathan. I think J'Tia will understand though. She was the one who was saying that whoever has the idol should use it regardless, and I did.

I'm hoping things will blow over by tomorrow. I'm grossed out by how fake the Sebou members are. Like, yeah, it's a game and we're all probably not going to socialize after it's over, but don't be fake excited or fake concerned or fake laughing. It's tacky. That goes out to Kelly, btw. She is so fake it makes me want to puke.

I'm guessing unless I win immunity, this will be the last round I'm going to be in. So why not go out being honest in the least tactful way possible, right? Maybe it'll earn me some bonus points and I'll last just for being a sore little bitch.

I have never been so happy to see "Update your bootlists" because I am hoping that means it's another Sausage Link and one of the four of us Dadès can win this challenge and save us all from being in a bottom three.

I'm trying to get rid of a slight allergy attack at the moment, but I am competition ready otherwise and I want so much to win and make up for the mistake I made using my idol on myself by saving the rest of Dadès just by linking one of them.

I would love nothing more than to see Marisa in that bottom three. I would be so tickled to death to see her leave this game right now, and will do everything I can to make it happen.

VICTORY!

Here is where we're at. Eddie, dear, sweet, irritating, Eddie. He wants to vote for Ken(dra) because he believes his/her name change is a threat and makes him/her a good social player. -_-

Meanwhile, everyone else would love nothing more than to vote for Marisa, because she's a giant slutbag. Granted, his reasoning may well be a more legitimate one, but I don't really care. Marisa has shown in the past that she has the ability to kick as at challenges and I care more about removing a challenge threat than a social threat. Ken(dra) can be social all he/she wants but it's not going to win him/her any challenges, now is it? No.

So I'll be hopping around checking to see what people think, but mostly I'm going to push for Marisa, regardless if Eddie wants it or not. I mean, hell, he wanted J.R. voted out last round and I got everyone to change over to vote for Yul, I think I have enough influence to do it again, not that it's going to take much because as of last night, Eddie was the only one who was gung-hoe about voting for Ken(dra) and if everyone sticks to their guns, he can do whatever he wants, but Marisa will still be out.

I don't know why, but Eddie is just absolutely determined not to vote for Marisa. He has now changed his mind from Ken(dra) to Bill because Bill is good at endurance. That's about all Bill is good at, but I can see this as being more legit. I do not understand why he feels the need to want to keep Marisa. I don't trust his judgement on this call. I feel like she is an overall bigger threat in the long run, and I want to take this opportunity to vote her out. If only for my pride and for Hayden.

However, Eddie will stop at nothing to get what he wants. So I guess we'll see if he can get enough of a following to pull it off, I doubt it, but I don't really care. We're still taking out someone on Hayden's behalf, which I guess is good enough for me.