The good things for Bill streak continues, my closest ally stayed, the idol got flushed, and the plan worked to perfection. Now I've just got to see how much of a target I really am right now with everybody, no more immunity : (

Marisa always needs more times.......

I smell some Sausage Links, and if they are there, I've got to win this challenge. Through word of mouth, I seem to be the main target of Dades, and I don't want the Sebou people getting pressured into leaving me out of the link so they can have a "easy" vote. The only way I can assure I'm here next round is if I win this and I'm ready to get it.

Changing my bootlist up a bit, I swapped Marisa with JR. I just feel like she's ready to flip with Eddie sooner than later, and that's not gonna fly with what I would like to happen. Add that with her challenge skills, and if we were to lose this to a Dadès person, I feel like she's the best person to go out of the 7.

Ugh, fuck fuck fuckitty fuck

Yeah, I'm pissed, yeah I'm sure there all celebrating and being buddies and smiling from ear to ear and throwing us under the bus, whatever. Somebody's gonna have to vote me out over my own dead body. Right now my target is Marisa, and I don't give a single fuck that she's friends with Eddie or whatever, I'm prepared to throw her under the bus, start the engine and push on the gas. Why? She's clearly the biggest challenge threat IMO. They'd be pretty idiotic to not get rid of her right now to me, when she can compete, she's always up there with the best. The bad thing is, I feel the target is on me with all this stuff getting thrown around with my name on it. If the Dadès people get what they want, I could be wining and dining in Ponderosa very soon.

Ugh, I really do not feel good right now. I feel like with the Dadès people it's between me and Yul at this point. Right now, I'm trying to play the "if it's me, no hard feelings" card with JR, then tomorrow, try and push for Marisa, but everybody is playing so scared right now. If I don't hear something soon I'm gonna have to speak up and go on the offensive.

So it seems as if I'm the 1st person to start throwing names out for this, could very well bite me in the ass, especially because the two people that I'm talking to about it are Betsy and Marisa, so I basically can't include the one person I actually am considering voting out. Sometimes I feel like Marisa is really tight with me, and does want to honor our alliance that we created pre-merge, but other times I feel that she's closer with Eddie and Betsy, and is a major challenge threat. If I can stay another round by voting out Kelly or Ken, preferably Ken, then I gotta do what I gotta do. Just feel like right now, opening my big mouth was probably the worst option, and Kelly/Ken will get word of what I'm saying sooner than later.

I'm completely tripping myself up with target talk right no, and if somebody decides to spread things, I could be in big trouble. I really should not start strategizing right as I begin to fall asleep, not thinking enough.

I don't think I'm going home. I think it's Marisa, and that's great I wanted to vote her, but had to backtrack due to her and one of her supposed allies in Betsy being the only people I was really talking to about the vote. JR is telling me the same thing (Marisa), and Eddie is telling me he'd tell me but he can't, so it should be Marisa, whoever it is it's unlikely to be me in a crazy turn of events. If I do stay, I need to re-work my game a bit and start playing both sides most likely, the twist really screws any team vs team stuff.

So I had this long-ish confessional talking how nervous I am and how the vote may be me, may be Marisa, may be anybody, then I hit something on my keyboard, and boom, all gone. So I'll just say I'm scared out of my mind right now, but there's not much I can do right now other than stuff that will probably just put a target on my back. I think I'm staying, I hope I'm staying, I don't really get why they'd vote me out over Marisa, but hey, bad decision on them if they do, there's not much else I can do, made my rounds to everybody and now I've just got to hope it works out.

Fuuuuuuuucccccccccccccckkkkkk

So apparently, the swap Sebou people are turning on me, because ya know, good plan! A not so wise, and not very good Survivor player once said:



That pretty much sums up how I feel right now. Are these people idiots???? I've been loyal to them all the way through, until now, and they want to vote me out? Am I some HUGE challenge threat or something? Lol C'mon. It'll either be 6-5/7-4 or my ass is adios. Right now, to make sure the vote is totally majority, I've got to take to Eddie. He's supposedly in a hard place right now, as me and Marisa are his two buddies on Sebou. Oh fuck, he knows pretty much word for word that I put his name out last round, ugh. I think I won him over with my apology, but I don't know, he still seems sort of on the fence about it. From what J'Tia is telling me, the votes should still be there regardless, but I really fucked up with him. He was the one person on Dadès I had a good relationship with and now, whether he saves me or not, I know it's pretty tarnished. If everything goes how it's supposedly gonna go, I'm gonna be stuck in an epically tough spot with pretty much no legitimate allies, and small chances of making it past the F7.

Ugh, the video was the Shii-Ann stupid people clip. I have no idea how to embed on these forums.

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