I took a very big risk tonight, but I think it was necessary. Jonathan had been talking for quite a long time with me tonight.
Jonathan Libby: (11:32:03 PM) true i don't even know what would happen if we went back to TC
Hayden Moss: (11:33:49 PM) Well i was certainly hoping to be part of a 3, but i also know everyone's had a lot of time to build relationships
Jonathan Libby: (11:34:00 PM) a three would be really beneficial
Hayden Moss: (11:34:01 PM) so i'm just gonna remain as positive as possible in the meantime
Hayden Moss: (11:35:38 PM) yeah i mean in a group of five it's the way to go
Jonathan Libby: (11:35:48 PM) yep i totally agree
Jonathan Libby: (11:48:06 PM) i mean, in an ideal world, the 5 of us would go all the way because I really like this group.
Jonathan Libby: (11:48:53 PM) but i mean, who knows what might happen. i'm always a fan of a small, tight group that can feel things out come merge
Hayden Moss: (11:48:54 PM) well, yeah, and if you don't feel comfortable crossing that bridge till we have to i understand... i just know we all lost a lot of our sense of security tonight
Jonathan Libby: (11:50:01 PM) are you suggesting we work together, my friend?
Hayden Moss: (11:50:50 PM) yeah, and I don't want to say it to be malicious to any other the others who i love
Hayden Moss: (11:51:13 PM) but i'd be willing to be on a team with ya for sure, i've thought that since round 2
onathan Libby: (11:52:48 PM) i'm totally down
Hayden Moss: (11:56:09 PM) Can I tell you something, then?
Jonathan Libby: (11:56:16 PM) yeah for sure
Hayden Moss: (11:56:30 PM) And I'm gonna trust ya cuz I know Dan isn't out the door yet and you could totally tattle on me, haha
Hayden Moss: (11:56:42 PM) But, I was a little shocked that you did kinda wanna talk about working with me
Jonathan Libby: (11:56:56 PM) why's that?
Hayden Moss: (11:57:02 PM) Cuz I did kinda hear a couple rounds ago about a 4 person alliance that was between you and charlie and jtia and eddie
Hayden Moss: (11:57:22 PM) and that, specifically, myself and Dan were to hang around to be the 5 and 6
Jonathan Libby: (11:57:53 PM) ah, who told you that?
Hayden Moss: (11:58:11 PM) Which, I did hear from Eddie. He and I have had a good relationship, but when he told me he said not to worry, that I'd be fine
Hayden Moss: (11:58:21 PM) and i think he said the same to Dan
Hayden Moss: (11:58:38 PM) obviously none of us suspected this, and honestly I've never been freaked out or felt like I was on the outside
Hayden Moss: (11:59:07 PM) And I love Eddie and I really do continue to trust him... its just, ya know, I'm watching Dan go in this vote
Jonathan Libby: (11:59:27 PM) do you have any loyalties to Dan?
Hayden Moss: (11:59:29 PM) and I know I can't just sit around and hope he saves me, I can't restrict my relationships with you
Hayden Moss: (11:59:46 PM) Dan approached Eddie and I about an alliance round 1
Hayden Moss: (11:59:51 PM) so, yeah, he's been hangin around
Hayden Moss: (12:00:09 AM) but I wasn't gonna try to get Eddie to tie a vote and draw rocks or whatever
Hayden Moss: (12:00:40 AM) So if the tribe was gonna vote out Dan, I mean it's gonna suck whoever goes, so my plan's just been to kinda go with what you guys want and try to rebuild my game before we go to TC again
Jonathan Libby: (12:00:51 AM) well
Jonathan Libby: (12:01:46 AM) first of all, I won't tell Eddie that you told me. That'd be shitty of me.
Hayden Moss: (12:02:02 AM) i do appreciate that... like i said i know i'm still vulnerable
Jonathan Libby: (12:02:19 AM) but. the three of us could definitely work together.
Hayden Moss: (12:02:32 AM) meaning you eddie and I?
Jonathan Libby: (12:02:40 AM) yeah
Jonathan Libby: (12:02:41 AM) i mean
Jonathan Libby: (12:02:44 AM) eddie obviously trusts you
Jonathan Libby: (12:03:23 AM) he told me earlier today that he trusts me a lot, and he's been slipping your name into convos frequently so he's definitely trying to subtly save you.
Hayden Moss: (12:03:36 AM) yeah, and i hope its clear i'm not trying to burn him
Hayden Moss: (12:03:46 AM) i just wanted to express to you that i kinda knew what the situation was
Jonathan Libby: (12:03:52 AM) no i know you're not
Hayden Moss: (12:03:55 AM) and why i would be asking a lot for you to trust and work with me
Ok, so if you didn't read, Jonathan said he'd be interested in working with me past another vote. To show him trust, I took a risk and told him that Eddie spilled to me about their 4-person alliance. Jonathan said he wasn't going to tell anyone, and suggested a 3-way deal between he, I, and Eddie.
Oh gosh, hmmm, I dunno how to feel about that. I mean, I think it only hurts me if I'm suddenly next to go over Dan. Most likely, it'll change nothing and I'll still be at the bottom. However, there is that small chance that I put a dent in that 4-person alliance. I felt like that was a risk I needed to take tonight, not at the Final 5 when everyone knew I was desperate. If that actually worked, which I'm still skeptical of, hot damn I got lucky.