ROUND THREE



Nick, me voting you out is a testament that you should never be too comfortable in your position. Gunning after the two people that would have likely voted to keep you shows that you're far too comfortable in whatever position you hold so I have to vote to get rid of you. Sorry!

ROUND SIX



Dan, we've unraveled a conspiracy and you're at the center. It was you or Dave and we decided that you were the safest bet. Nothing personal!

ROUND EIGHT



I've been lied to, cheated, backstabbed, betrayed, you name it. I'm not going to let it happen again without a fight. I wish I could cast this vote for Jamie tonight, but you're the next best thing. Sorry!

FINALE



Luckily for you, your partner is an asshole and you were able to prove your awareness and overall gameplay. Best of luck!

FINAL THOUGHTS

Well, this is it. In about a half hour from the time I'm writing this, Sausage Island 7 will finally be over. It was certainly a rollercoaster but it is hands down the best experience I've ever had playing Survivor. This may surprise some people, knowing how frequently I complained about everyone hating me and how everyone was an asshole and everything like that, but despite the emotional stress that I allowed myself to go through, and despite not making it deep into the merge, I'm proud of myself. And I know that deep down I have succeeded, even though what I accomplished wasn't what I set out to do.

When I started this game, I had one thing on my mind; to improve my game and impress everyone. I absolutely hate being the underdog, I hate when people look down on me and say "you can't do this" and I sort of have an obsession with proving them wrong. I know this about myself. I know that I'm addicted to compliments and flattery and I set out to find positive reinforcement and acceptance in any way I can. Everything I have done I have done to impress, and this frequently gets in the way of my own entertainment and enjoyment. I think, however, learning the hard way that people WILL have a negative perception of you that I'm slowly starting to realize that all of the energy I put into getting people to like me is energy gone to waste. I tried my best to be everyone's best friend and it completely backfired when I was probably the most disliked person in the entire game.

Some people can easily be the nice guy that everyone likes and it's frustrating to me when I can't do that. With my constant attempts at building relationships I shy away from those that really care. I end up annoying everyone else, turning people off from me by saying the wrong thing or other miscommunications, and frankly by being a pain in the ass. I realize that I have a LONG way to go and a lot to mature before I can master these skills but at least I'm aware and actively working towards these. I need to calm down the entertainer in me, quit trying to put on a show for my audience, and wise up. This not only goes for Survivor, it's real life as well. I put on a facade to achieve greatness when I'm not that confident in who I really am. So, thanks to the cast for being blunt with me.

But that's not the real reason I'm making this post right now. There is a massive tear in the relationship between Jamie and I, and I don't know if it will ever be fixed. I don't understand how someone could be so apathetic to the concerns of others to benefit themselves, especially in an online game when the prize doesn't really matter. He ruined friendships left and right and he still doesn't seem like he has any regrets in this game. He played a cold, heartless, ruthless game, but I think it's mostly because he wanted it so much. I know how it feels to want something so much, and who am I to take that away from him when he clearly sacrificed so much more than John?

















































So I'll be casting my vote for Jamie to win this game. I wish I never had to do this, I wish he never made it to the end, but he did. I figured before that Jamie losing would be the best end to his arc possible, but now I see that I can't look at it like that. He's a person, with emotions just like me (though I don't think he expresses his nearly as often as I do). If he wants to turn everyone against him so he can win a game, by all means, let him win the game. I just don't know if I can ever really trust or be friends with him again.

Thank you to the hosts, PWs, the casts for such a thrilling and fantastic ride. I do love all of you dearly, and thanks to all for putting up with me when I was annoying and sometimes on the verge of mental breakdown. I learned a lot in this game, and I only have all of you to thank. I'm by no means at the level I should be, but that's just something I'll have to work towards. That's all there really is to say, I guess. See you all at Waffle next season ;)

- Ciera