I got an idol. I got an idol. I got an idol. hey. hey. hey.

I'm so conflicted. I think I may be getting rid of my idol this round. It's sad because I just got it and I wanted to use it for more of a power move. I'm just paranoid though and I'm getting really sketched out.

I mean Jamie, Dreamz, Todd, Kelly, Ciera, and I are supposed to be in a 6 person alliance. That's just weird off the bat because why would Jamie and Todd want to align with four of us? Right? I mean something just doesn't make sense on that front. Then everyone agrees on John over Leann because "Leann might have the idol". Hm. Then I hear that everyone else besides the 6 are voting for Laura? Laura? wtf. That is the most random vote ever. Why vote Laura? I mean she has the potential to have the idol, but I've been in the brig way longer so the likelihood that I have it is so much greater. I have also been pretty vocal in my contempt for some of these people.

My gut tells me something is wrong. I think what might be happening is that they're getting the "6" to vote for John and then the other people are voting for me. They're getting a win/win situation in this regard. If I play my idol, John still goes. Someone that isn't useful for them. If I don't play my idol, I'm gone.

I don't know. My mind is going in a million different directions. A part of me thinks playing my idol regardless helps me. It eliminates the fear of the idol and that way I'm not viewed as a potential threat in any capacity. It also just buys me a round. Just in case. It's better to be safe than sorry, but I also don't want to be a fool.

But what's worse? Playing your idol and not needing it? Or not playing your idol and going home with it?

It's sad but I don't trust any of these fucking people. lol.

Well, I made the wrong decision to play the idol for myself and not give it to Ciera. I will most likely be voted out next in line since everyone else are Jamie's little bitches. What I don't get about Jamie though? He knows he got his way yet he's taunting Ciera and I. Saying things like "Congrats on playing the idol, Ciera". "Oh we voted for you, Hatch. You're stupid for giving it to Ciera". Trying to get our hopes up that we actually succeeded in trying to swing things.

Ciera and I will most likely be jury. Why kick people when they're down? He won't get my vote when I'm on that jury. Class is a huge thing for me. You can lie and backstab in a classy way. There are just some things you do not do. Kicking someone when they're down in my opinion is so juvenile.