I'm just so aggravated at everyone in this entire game. I consider myself a good player. I've been playing for over 11 years now and have done fairly well the majority of the time. This game though? My god. I feel useless. I literally cannot do anything to make a difference in this game. I try but you just can't make any significant moves if no one is willing to play ball with you. No one tells me anything of relevance and when they do it's bold face lies. Last night was the second tribal council that I've been to and it's the second tribal where people have just lied without a second thought to me. It's frustrating.

Maybe I'm completely clueless as to the real dynamics of the relationships in this game? I don't know. I thought the Dan vote was a no brainer. Lugata had 6 members out of 13. If anybody but Dan/Dave went home, they would have had control over half the entire cast. Even if there are some cracks within their alliance. Why take the risk of that when there are still so many of them? At least knock them down a little to where they have the same amount of people as old Gwad and Saptano. Chet and John obviously don't have that mindset because everyone voted for Ciera. I think they're sheep. I think they're naive.

Now apparently Tribe A or whatever the hell their stupid name is are going to throw the challenge tonight to vote out Dreamz. That's aggravating enough because we let them get to the position where they have so many people that they have the capability of throwing the next two challenges to ensure that they make merge with 5 people.

I told Ciera and Laura that I thought it was in our best interest to throw it. To protect Dreamz and Kelly. They both don't want to though because they want to protect Ciera from the tie. Boo fucking hoo. We have three people here. Dreamz and Kelly are two. They don't have options. If they go to tribal council. One of them will lose. If we lose, we can hope to sway Chet or we force a tie and hope to win the tie breaker. I just feel the odds are better in our favor if we lose. They're so narrow minded though. Ciera hopes that maybe at merge Todd and Greg will switch things up.

The funny thing is at merge, Ciera is going to be the first one to go if we go in without the numbers. So she has most at stake for maintaining the numbers. I have some hope of being the guy everyone ignores and everyone lies to that they'll keep dragging me along with the wool pulled over my eyes.

I feel like I can't play the game I want to and it's frustrating. I'm used to getting things done and making things happen. I just don't have the people that want to listen. They're too invested in their other plans to even entertain something else. The only hope I have of making it far is to play a Sandra from Heroes v. Villians. Each round she kept trying to get rid of Russell and every single round no one would listen to her. What happened? Every single round Russell screwed someone over. I feel that's going to be the case with Lugata. I'm trying to get rid of them, but every round people ignore me and it ends up biting them. Hopefully I can always be that person that is just not threatening enough for the vote and I keep getting overlooked. It's the only chance I have at this point.

My money is on Jamie, Leann or Dave winning this game.

Smh. Well, they threw it and now Kelly is going to go home. I seriously think some of these people have to have had a pregame alliance. I just dont know of another logical explaination for some of these people's actions. Like Dreamz or John. It just doesn't make sense. I mean I hope they have a pregame with people from Lugata cuz that would mean theyre just cheaters. Not fucking retards. Oh well.

Oh this is funny. I knew eventually someone would need me. This is why you don't just discard the people you don't think you need because there may be a time that you do. When that time comes that person won't forget that you ignored them, lied to them, etc. At least I won't.

So tonight I get a frantic IM from Dreamz and then Jamie IMed me too asking if I was there. It rang some alarm bells in my head because it's out of character for them. Especially since I had an exchange with Jamie over the throwing of the challenge that wasn't the friendliest. Anyway, they're getting rid of Greg. Todd/Dreamz/Kelly/Jamie are blindsiding Greg & Leann. This makes me laugh because it's gonna cause all kinds of scrambling within the Lugata tribe.

They want a final 6 deal with Dreamz, Jamie, Todd, Kelly, Ciera, and I. Of course I'm going to make them believe I'm all for this deal. But why would Todd and Jamie want to go into a final 6 situation with 4 Gwad? They wouldn't. I don't trust Dreamz and Jamie. There is something up there. However, I will act like this is the best thing since sliced bread.

I knew Lugata would eat each other eventually. I just didn't think I would be around to see it. I thought it'd happen a lot later. But the fact that Jamie and Todd have made the move. It's gonna cause so much chaos. This chaos is gonna put me in a great position because for weeks now I've been discarded as a nobody, not a threat, etc. So what's gonna happen? I'll become an important vote going forward and people will be approaching me left to right.

The thing these people don't know.. I don't forgive. I don't forget. lol. This should be fun. :)