I will write a confessional tonight or tomorrow but can we just get a hurrah for me dominating that challenge. HURRAH. I'm so making myself out to be a gigantic threat though but I don't care. I'm too cute to go home.

Coming into this round Danni leaving sucked for me but also was a blessing in disguise because she won’t be here to associate myself with her any longer, plus she is a loose cannon and pretty predictable. I did adore her as a person but as a player she is way too OTT in the wrong way, some people can use OTT to intimidate or Phillip themselves to the end but she didn’t go about it the right way. But on her way out I definitely decided to use her as my “source of information” about random things to gain insight and power (information is power) amongst my fellow contestants, we’ll go into how later on in the confessional though as I did it several times for different instances. This quote sums up pretty much how I feel Danni was in this game:

“Lost, lost and never found
Hide your secrets, settle down
I am young and I am naive
Tell me something I will believe”

Kathy leaving wasn’t too bad but it definitely made Dreamz paranoid on his position in the game I could tell so that is something I will have to fix pretty soon here coming but she was sweet just crazy and filled with too much paranoia. Finally, Nick being the last boot of the triple boot of the previous round - I never spoke to Nick and also took him out in the pecking order/puzzle challenge so honestly it was no loss to me but I know John was good friends with him and could’ve used him as a number for us but I’m not even thinking of it like that. I’m thinking of it on how I have one less person in the game I don’t have a connection with which is great.

Then I come home from class and I see that Richard and Greg decided to switch tribes, I don’t mind except it gives Richard a clue to the hidden immunity idol - Greg having it is fine because he shared to me the clue. It’s about the winner on the season going to the first tribal council or whatever and he’s already tried Vanuata and I guess you can guess two times, once before TC and once after. But back to the switching aspect, Richard switching baffles me, yeah he may have been in danger had he lost again but he has been telling me he hates Ciera so much and so forth and I fed into it to just make him feel like we shared a lot of the same opinions but then he goes to her tribe anyway, what the hell. They either talked it out, never were that distant to begin with or or a mixture of the two. I’m working on figuring that out but I covered ground when I told Ciera I honestly didn’t mind Richard even though they had a argument and I’ll subtly put it into Richard’s mind that Ciera’s not too bad either but I don’t want people to label me with being in Ciera’s cult, it’s not even a cult though. Too hilarious.

Anyway, PG needs to exit this game real fast. She’s setting herself as a huge threat which is perfect and I know she could act as a shield for me but honestly I don’t trust her one bit. She’s not with me and our conversations almost always die because because she’s either mobile or out doing something and I call tell I’m not a priority with her but that just makes me want to knife her that much more. I know she also has connections with Chet on my tribe which Chet has kept hidden from me, which just makes me know Chet is just trying to play me up for his advantage most likely which is fine - two can play that game. I’ve already been working all angles. I can’t wait until PG goes and then I can possibly write this on my parchment (since she never answers IMs of mine really and in the beginning I loved her, we had a great connection):

“You never answer on the phone
With your nicotine lips and your heart of stone
I look for you by the underpass
Looks like this love wasn’t meant to last”

Then when I arrive home from finishing up homework at school, I come home right before the challenge and word on the street is that Dreamz approached both Dave and Greg to possibly switch tribes which makes me think that Dreamz wasn’t as fine with Kathy going as he tried to put on a show for, but I already knew that. Like come on Dreamz, I’m not stupid I pegged that way before your attempt to switch but Richard and Greg beat him to it so that was perfect because it then put a position of Dreamz to speak to me about the previous tribal council. He told me he was nervous that Chet, Todd and myself had a majority alliance last round which was true (but I know Chet has alliances elsewhere too so I don’t trust him) but I denied it and I reassured him that we were fine. I knew I needed to make him seem like someone caused me doubt too or he would just think I was trying to play him the entire round with no reason other than having people above him since he was approached last about the vote. I used Danni as a scapegoat and told him Danni flipped out when she left and she randomly sent me information regarding an alliance of: Kathy, Dreamz and PG for last round which was believable that she could’ve told me this because Dreamz and Kathy were working together. Dreamz can deny it all he wants. I’m not stupid.

After the talk though I pretended like I was so relieved about everything because I was nervous about my position on the tribe because Danni made me paranoid and he told me he felt so much better as well. I don’t know how much I believe him but I don’t care, I just need to WORK him if Chet and PG are a voting block, the only thing that makes this hard is that Lugata has so many people remaining that it could Dreamz off from working with me if we were to lose. But, we could also talk about Gwad and Lugata teaming up to decimate the Saptano tribe so my options aren’t closed to rope him in - I just need to continue to be resourceful. Then during the challenge, I start out by getting pretty damn lucky during the challenge and hit a bunch of people right off the bat but then it started to get pretty down to the wire and I wasn’t 100% confident I had enough time to work Dreamz or that Dave would be safe so I asked Dan and Greg if they would throw it and Dan says it was too risky but that he really wanted to. Okay Dan, it’s sooooo risky for you to throw the challenge when you have a 3-2 Lugata majority.

That showed me Dan’s true colors and that he was only looking out for himself in this game which was a red flag, I don’t trust him fully anymore especially because I would’ve done it for him, but oh well I acted like it was fine and that I completely understood. Greg was spoken to by Dave and myself, Greg agreed to give me Yau’s coordinates and told me he wanted to search for some keys while the last shots were taken, he ended up not finding anymore and I told him I had to leave to write a paper soon so he sent me his spot, I shot there and won it. Making myself look like a hero to my tribe, little do they know. But that’s okay, they don’t need to know what is going on behind the scenes. Unless Greg told anyone else I believe Dave, Greg and myself are the only three that know what happened during the end portion of the challenge.

After the challenge I knew John was probably in danger which would suck beyond belief because he is my #1 in this game but I knew he had leverage with Leann being on the tribe, even though Leann can be a bit gamebotish and stubborn at times. And she has ADHD I’m pretty sure so that would explain the lack of fluid conversations she’s able to develop but I knew John could charm his way into making Yau the target. John and I spoke and shared the conversations we were having with Leann and made sure that he would stay over Yau because lets face it, Yau helps me with my game zero. I was selling to Leann that John had less connections than Yau which would make him a more valuable asset than Yau who had more options and people on his old tribe to fuck us over come merge, the next tribal council or the swap so that ended up working perfectly as I logged on this morning and John tells me that Leann is on board with keeping him, Dan is as well along with Greg. Yau should be going which should’ve happened this past round - but his time has come and I have to be thankful for that.

Ciera and I also chatted and I knew going into the conversation she was super close to Kelly, I wanted her to tell Kelly basically how I felt about her so Kelly would be reassured about our connection that much more and it would open up Ciera to me. I wrote something like “omg between us, where is Kelly I miss her - she’s so cute!” and then Ciera went on to tell me she was hers and then was like “Do you want to admit to your bromance with Dan and Dave?” and I was like DAVE IS SO CUTE. I didn’t want to mention Dan that much because I knew she didn’t trust Dan that much from what I heard around the block, but apparently she likes Dan so there was some subtle hints that Dave, Kelly, Ciera and myself would work together and she basically listed all these people who would be with us/against us and such. She wants PG out as well so we possibly spoke about having Dave and Dreamz switch this round, which would make me want to throw the challenge and hopefully get PG out of this game but I would only let Todd and Dave know if that happened because of the idol lurking out there, I don’t want it being passed around to PG. If they do switch though I made Ciera think it was in her best interest and she told me she would just tell Dreamz it’d bring Gwad back together and such which is perfect because she can do the dirty work, not me. I’ll just plan from behind the scenes but I’ve already made myself a huge threat so I need to step back for a bit.