Man I'm really glad that things went according to plan last round.

I'm just glad that after what happened, Rachel is feeling a lot better. She really needs to confess!

oyyyyy

I feel silly. I should have seen this coming. I can't really blame anyone, I would have probably wanted to do the same thing if I was anyone out of the six. Voting with Kenny last round was dumb. I think if I had more time to think about it, I would have opted out of it. I guess the problem was that we wanted to make sure Jaison was going, a hinky vote would have fucked the whole thing up. But alas, what ya gonna do.


It's frustrating because I'm getting pulled by so many different people. I feel like Liz and I will get picked off or we'll be used and then picked off. Idk. I wanted to blow up but I didn't want to just throw away my game. I have to play like I'm over the whole thing and I'm fine when in all actuality all I want to do is get Hope, Woo and Jeremiah out of this game as soon as possible.

Targeting Jenna was silly but my reasoning was that there was no way an Anaira was not going to go. Jenna was the Anaira that I trusted the least because of the idol thing. It was a tough call to make but I did it in the hopes that would have helped the rest of us. BUT ALAS!

I don't know what to do, I'm super bummed that Kenny is gone. I will say this though, they really should have taken me out instead. I don't know if I'll be able to, but I'm going to try and do everything I can to get back at Hope, Woo, and Jeremiah. One step at a time.

Stay humble, Neal.

Oyyyyyyyyyyyy I'm just trying to not play this game like a chicken with his head cut off but I feel like I'm playing this game like a chicken with my head cut off.

I was so mad the night Kenny left. I just wanted to yell at everyone and hate everyone for doing something that OBVIOUSLY made sense for them.

After taking a night to just think about what happened, I get it. There really isn't any reason for me to be upset with like Rachel, Rita, or Hunter for doing something that made a lot of sense for them. It's easy to justify your own actions and want to "get revenge" on everyone that you felt like did you wrong, but the truth is that everyone is just doing whats best for them. You can't really blame anyone.


I will say this though, people are a lot friendlier when you win immunity. I spent the entire night individually talking to Woo, Hope, Rachel, and Hunter. Basically I wanted to figure out everything that went down. I just wanted to have some sort of idea of where the game was at this point. Jeremiah came to me after the vote saying that he was surprised I got votes and that he believes OG Mushu is tight and they all voted for me. Which I thought was a weird thing to say because I would have assumed he knew exactly what was going on with the vote. Does he really have my best interest or is he just trying to get in good with me, vilify Mushu, and use myself and Liz.

I found out that Jeremiah was the one that outed the six (according to Woo and Hope so I have to take that with a grain of salt). Apparently he also tried throwing Woo and Hope under the bus to everyone else saying they were voting for Jenna. Woo was very apologetic about what happened and I REALLY WANT TO BELIEVE HE'S GENUINE. He suggested that Liz and I could vote with him and Rachel, Hope, Hunter (basically saying that Mushu IS a thing). This is a solid option but I don't think I could lock myself in that 6 just yet. I don't think I'm ready to lock myself in ANYwhere until I have a legitimate idea of where everyone stands. Thats what I have to figure out this round.


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Also I do feel the need to talk about Rachel real quick. I know I give her shit in here sometimes but I really do think she's incredibly sweet. Last night was like the FIRST time we really opened up about the game to each other. My relationship with Rachel has been so weird because we've talked all game but didn't start voting with each other until merge. We've been dancing around answers with each other for the longest time and I think we're finally starting to get past that. I owe a lot to Rachel.