Okay. I have some splaining to do. If you asked me this morning if I was going to give my idol away to Kenny, I would have said NONONONO. But I was just getting so frustrated today about being out of the loop of the vote. It was the same exact thing that happened last round except this time it was someone that I'd actually played with since day 1. I've had my reservations about Kenny and there have been times when I've questioned if he really was with me. But when I started hearing about his name being chosen as the target, I just felt like I was losing someone that I could actually play with and he really only had myself fighting for him. I wondered if this was going to keep happening, there would be no talk until the 11th hour and then another person I liked would go, and another, and another, until I was going to get blindsided or forced to use my idol and then taken out next round.
I wanted to break this game apart and fuck with people's plans. I feel like Jaison was a big piece of the puzzle for a lot of people. I don't think I was ever going to be in his plans, and I wasn't going to wait to find out. I might have fucked myself and pissed people off but at least I feel like I'm actually doing something. I'm not going to just waste away and wait for my number to come up. I'm going to protect the people I trust and I'm going to make a fucking run for it. We're not even playing for real money so fucking live a little. | 
