i will answer these questions tomorrow but i just wanna say that crazy jackie was a truly brutally r.obbed g.oddess that was just too ahead of her time

rip <3

when i said tomorrow i meant more like
not tomorrow
but soon

1. i genuinely don't know what i did, tbh. like everyone kinda told me that i did really well in the challenge and then the ~entire~ round people were telling me that it'd be unanimous for caleb to go and then all of a sudden i got a vote thrown my way. since strategic conversation didn't really happen a lot (for me) on my tribe, i kinda just assumed that i was on the outs and that a vote was thrown my way in case caleb had an idol WHICH I STILL BELIEVE TO BE TRUE!!! although i wouldn't be shocked if i was wrong and if i was just making a big deal out of nothing.

2. i think where i went wrong was talking too much. i told people what i wanted rather than being presented with options and choosing which way i wanted to go, which could have been simple if i'd just been a little bit more quiet. i should've never told anyone my ~theory~ about how i thought the vote was split on me and i definitely should have openly declared war upon the Lóng tribe. i came in waaay too strong but i sorta felt like i had to at the time? looking back i could've probably played it a little more calm BUT i'm not surprised at all by the way i handled the situation lmfao. i probably became an even bigger target because of hope, though. i remember alina randomly deciding to hate me after i told j.p. that i would wanna vote alina out and i sorta felt like he threw me under the bus or something. so, when hope asked me about it... i told her that i felt like j.p. might have something to do with all of the alina drama and i explained everything to her. from that point on, i think i started to lose the trust of the people who wanted to side with me and everything just went ~tumbling~ down.

3. nope. maybe hope because of the way she talked to me. she would message me and say things like "oh ya, you're great. i've been talking you up to everyone and i think it's working. i think people wanna work with you!" and she was really good at making me feel like i was playing well socially but i feel like i didn't even have 1/8th as much social influence as she did. she's killing it, tbh. but yeah, not surprised with anyone who voted me out. especially liz. she was really sketchy, even though i did sorta build a bond with her.

4. NOTHING. i had a lot of fun and that's the way i like to play these. i feel like i was completely myself for better or for worse and i just genuinely had a blast even with my 20th place and first pre-jury placement. <3

5. i'm rooting for hope!! she kinda like... literally eviscerated my entire soul and i sorta love it? i think she's playing so well rn and i'd love to see her succeed because she was actually very pleasant to talk to and has a really strong grasp on the game and how it's played. i'm also rooting for ozzy and jenna, my fellow dragons. <3

i'm rooting against old long. i didn't really have a lot of meaningful conversations with any of them and i didn't feel like i made actual connections with any of them. from that group i'm mostly rooting against alina. talking to her was painfully boring and she has an awful temper that's like actually really uncomfortable to be around at times. hearing about how she wanted to stab puppies was like the least favorite part of my day ever.

6. thank you guys for casting me!!! i was a flop but i still had a lot of fun and i really appreciate being picked because i didn't think i would be ^_^ this game was amazing and i'm ~PROUD~ to have played in it despite my horrible messiness

also this is 3 weeks late i don't even think any of this is relevant anymore but i decided i'd answer this stuff anyway now that i actually have my thoughts in order and stuff

but ya that's all <3

Aw thank you Jacklyn<3