Hi guys,

Still desperately trying to catch up here!

In Round 4 I kinda felt like my tribe had gotten really complacent. There were only a few hours left in the challenge and we hadn't even finalized who we were sitting out. So, Mama Mel stepped up and whipped everyone into shape. I posted our sit-outs and organized the tasks and pretty much pushed them to start doing the challenge.

I was surprised and concerned to see that this really had to happen, especially since if we lost we'd actually have to vote someone out who's at least somewhat active!

So, either my tribe has shoehorned me into the leader/organizer/challenge-person position and were just waiting for me to take the initiative, or they just didn't really care about winning (or both). I don't know how that makes me feel.

I like being a contributing member to a team, I really do. I don't know, I just.. felt a little used, I suppose? Maybe I'm being dramatic. I will say that several of my tribemates (Woo, Hope, Rachel) privately messaged me to thank me for the work I put in, and I do really appreciate that. So I'm probably just being a mess.

We ended up winning the challenge, though. I bet you guys are tired of that happening, and I'm a little sorry about that. I'm really sorry that Natalie's tribe has done so poorly, but what am I supposed to do about it?

I haven't talked to her in a while, and I'm a little worried that she hates me.

Emotionally yours,

Melinda

Going to end on a positive note here, though!

One great thing that happened during Week 4 is that Hope approached me and asked what I was doing, and then invited me to do the puzzle site (from Too Many Cooks challenge) with her. It was really fun. I like Hope a lot.

Thank you for making me feel better,

Mel