EPISODE V
"Spiders are pretty powerful?"

It's awful that I have not said or done anything in like three rounds. I have been neglecting my confessional and I am sorry about that. I simply don't know what to say, there is nothing really going on, the challenges have been so fun, the cast is alright, but there is nothing to say, when you go on a winning streak you really can't play the game. Like I'm not gonna go out of my way to strategize and be a douche when it's unnecessary.

The tribes changed, and I was separated from Hope who is by far my favorite, Woo left too, and I was only left with Hunter out of the people who I actually felt a connection to. Rachel and Ozzy are nice too, but they are far too vanilla, Melinda and I never really talked until tonight. I also have Rita who I like a lot cause we were dragon buddies.

I don't know what Joe was thinking because number wise he put 5 former Mushu together? I am not sure if he thought about that or he was trying to stack his tribe. Either way, it is nothing too impressive, we barely won. Hopefully Hope stays alive over there, Woo too, and considering how barely active JP was I am hoping he goes first. Though I am worried for them in the future.

I met Jenna and Natalie, they are both nice but I just don't feel that instant click. To be honest I am having a really hard time with the social game, once you play non-alias and you actually get to know people... how can you expect to care about someone who is not even who they say they are? I am used to voice-calls, and getting to actually know a person, here everyone is under an alias. I have a hard time feeling genuinely interested in most of these people, only Hunter, Hope, and Woo had been "Real" enough for me to care.

Like, I feel bad cause I feel like a super shitty castaway. The game is fun, the challenges are amazing, the people are NOT bad, I am just having trouble relating to people when I don't even know if they are who they say they are? Hell, I have been saying I am STILL working as a server even tho I don't, just so I have something to talk about.

I am praying we can lose the next challenge so I have something to do. I want to play the game.