SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUP.

Hey my favourite fourteen year old girls and twenty-one year old mormons! It's your daddy hero Joe Anglim here coming to you with another slice of confessional pie straight from the oven! Watch your tongues, just like yours truly it's gonna be

So there's a lot of things I want to talk about this round thus far. A lot hasn't actually happened that's dramatic or notable. It's pretty straight forward: Will hasn't been here and I'd bet my manbun's life that he'll be leaving this round. I don't put my manbun in danger unless I'm absolutely positively certain. That manbun holds the power to attract Survivor fangirls near and far, and I wouldn't risk that unless I knew I was coming out a winner.

I do think this round is a lot of me laying down the blueprints of how I want to play this game as Joe, and the forseeable future of OG Anaira so I'm very excited to talk about that! And I know you're excited too because who doesn't love to hear me talk?!

Let's get challenge business out of the way first.

Immediately from the challenge description I knew what the challenge was going to be. This was both a good thing and a bad thing. The really good news is from an ORG I hosted prior to this game, I knew exactly what the puzzle would entail, what the website was, and how it would operate. I feel like I pulled my necessary weight by putting it out there and giving our tribe the opportunity to practice beforehand.

My group wound up being Jenna, Neal, Kenny, and myself. This was my ideal group for this challenge. Neal and I already have been building up a strong bond and in challenge one we cooperated really well to finish setting up the spreadsheet for the first challenge. Since we were able to cooperate without communication, I thought he would be perfect for my group. In terms of people on my tribe, I have a strong bond with Jenna but not as strong as Kenny, Liz, or Neal. Jenna and Rita are kind of in the middle of the pack of who I want to work with. Since I already have a really strong bond with Kenny and Liz, and Neal and I also communicate very well, Jenna and Rita are kind of left in the middle by default. Working with Jenna gave me an opportunity to converse with her more and work with her cooperatively for the first time in the game. I'm very much still in the feeling out process with everyone so it was nice to have Jenna in this heat.

Kenny initially was going to wait until the next day to do the challenge. I believe he wanted to do the challenge with Liz. My problem with this was that Kenny, Jeremiah, Liz, and myself were all in Group B in the first challenge and I don't want to indicate any separatism. I never expressed this to Kenny; it came down to nobody else being online when the three of us wanted to do the challenge and Kenny obliged to help us out. I kept asking him if he was sure he wanted to do it tonight, and he accepted the offer.

So... wait. I didn't have to explain my paranoid irrational messiness which lasts temporarily and makes me feel stupid later and people may still wind up doing what I hope they do? Really?

This taught me something very valuable which I wasn't too good at in the previous game I played: Patience. In the previous game I played, whenever I was faced with a situation where I even felt the slightest bit uneasy, I made it a thousand times worse by sharing my thoughts or information with people and by doing so I ruined a lot of trust (love you Caryn <3) and made myself look just stupid countless times over. This game I really want to embrace Joe and follow this simple mantra:



It's true dudes. I'm just here to enjoy the beaches. I'm all about zen and saying suuuuuup and swingin' in a hammock all day when the day's work is done. I don't want to express my paranoia. I don't want to be paranoid. Go with the motion of the ocean baby. I'll get more into that later.

Anyways, Kenny is with us four. We practice two of these swap puzzles -- admittedly I'm bad at them. I'm just bad at logic puzzles in general. You see, the producers of Sausage Island know that Joe is ratings. How are they going to bring up the next generation of sexy single ready to mingle Survivor beach babes if there's no beach bod for them to swoon over? So while I was swapping pieces left and right the camera lens was all up in my face, getting those angles that they need to sell the next full sized Joe Anglim poster. It got me out of my mojo and I just couldn't perform as the rest of my team! Oh well dudes. Oh well.

When it came down to the actual challenge, we still finished it pretty fast! I did contribute, but I definitely was the weakest in the challenge -- damn camera lenses! It's all for the ladies though, so I accept taking a humble back role as Lóng as they fall in love and I get my sweet pay cheque love and adoration because I love and adore each and every one of you dudes and dudettes <3.

The other four did pretty well, and I thought we had it in the bank bay-beeeeee!

Except we didn't. We came second by two to three minutes. It whomps to lose, but our team didn't do bad by any means. It was a tough challenge and the fact we kept it competitive means that we by no means are a weak tribe and have any weak links.

Let's keep the Anglim Express rolling!

Paranoia.

In my previous game, paranoia made me do a lot of stupid things. When I perceived something as negative towards my game, my immediate response was to freak out and go into preventative action immediately. By doing this I'd reveal a lot of information that was unnecessary to reveal, I'd make myself look unreliable, and overall I'd just feel like a jackass because if I'd avoided it things would probably have been a lot better off than they were.

That's why Joe Anglim is perfect for me. Joe's all about zen and yoga and admiring the beaches and keeping a positive upbeat attitude. That's my game. That's the role I want to play and I'm going to play it. I've already accepted in my head early on if my name's in the line of fire: it is what it is. I'm gonna be there eventually, my number is probably gonna come up, and I'm gonna be out of this game. Don't get me wrong, I want to win. To outlast 26 other castaways -- who wouldn't want those bragging rights? But if I want to win, I can't be paranoid. I have to seem like the cooler head in any situation. If I was in a fickle, I'd run to someone who has a cool head to help me think it through and put a plan into action. I want that to be me! The only way I wont be paranoid is by accepting the fact that I will likely lose this game. You've heard it here first folks, I will probably be out within the next 24ish rounds before the final. I appreciate your inevitable tears when my torch is snuffed and I make a pouty face looking directly into the cameras. I'm living this game vicariously through the paradox: If I want to win, I have to accept that I'm going to lose.

This has already began to pay off for me. Rita and Liz have already admitted to me that they are paranoid players. I've seen my fair share of paranoid players and I'm certain that there's a myriad of them in this game. I've basically responded in the way that I thought was appropriate. Tell them to go with the flow, everything's all groovy and chill, and it's perfectly alright to be paranoid. Y'know, Joe answers. They both, Rita especially, seems to appreciate the level headedness.

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you're like the ally i need in this game to keep me grounded and sane i swear May 15, 2016 10:08 PM :). i don't even know what else to say haha! im so flattered to hear that. i just think its best to be chill and go with the flow! May 15, 2016 10:15 PM You're definitely right I think I just need to take some deep breaths when I'm feeling paranoid and uncertain where I stand in this tribe or the game in general May 15, 2016 10:24 PM :) any time you need to vent it out lemme know! i don't consider it weakness. i think it's a very important part of the game. i wish i were a bit paranoid thanks ill probably definitely take you up on that offer well if u ever do become paranoid, feel free to vent to me im a good listener

I think I can play the role of being an open space for people to vent and calm them down. Through this I can definitely see some information slipping that could be valuable to my game in the future. I get to be a service to members of my tribe and allies in my game, and in the heat of the moment may get some information in return that could help me determine my next moves in the game, or a Lóng term goal.

I'm hoping I stay on the other side of the fence this time. If I become a paranoid disaster this game please just ignore everything I said and laugh at me. I just wanna look at the beaches mannnnn.

Finally, the dragons, the challenge tonight, and the speculation.

Hunter and I still get aLóng fairly well. We've talked pretty consistently and are able to bond over our similar interests. The conversation keeps going and it doesn't feel forced. I enjoy talking to Hunter, no complaints here.

Caleb I've talked to once. We talked about Star Wars and Xbox for about ten minutes. This was days ago. He stopped responding to me. I haven't really tried to connect with Caleb since, and maybe I should have. I've decided to spend my time elsewhere, rather living my life, sleeping, or putting in time with the people on my tribe; ultimately they're the ones who will decide my fate. I don't think Caleb would care to vote me out anyways, if we lose a dragon we lose an extra move in the idol hunt -- the same idol hunt Caleb didn't submit a move for. I don't really know Caleb, and Hunter has said that Caleb doesn't talk that frequently to him as well.

I have a lot of crazy speculations as to what this challenge could be. Obviously the hint is the nine symbols that represent the nine dragons. My leading guess is one dragon group, or one dragon from each group will receive immunity and there will be all three tribes going to tribal. The other one I've thought of, which would be equally ridiculous and hilarious, is each dragon pair has to vote someone out. It'd get us down from 26 to 15 -- so I think that this one is completely unlikely. That and everyone would lose their extra move in the idol hunt, since nobody would have all three dragons left. I think it's too early for a tribe swap, but if we were put on tribes to be placed with our dragons, Hunter would be a great ally. I'd miss the people I've bonded over on Anaira, but it's the way of the game. I'm glad I set myself up with a lot of people I enjoyed talking to pregame, in the event of such a sudden swap. My favourite pairing in the game is Kenny, Hope, and Jaison. Literally three of the top people I enjoyed conversing with pregame. Lucky bastard.

To build a bit of unity between the three of us, I made a neato little graphic!



Like how I made Mushu's dragon the center of attention? In the unlikely case of that 9 person vote out I'm kissing his ass and pandering to him as much as I can to ensure he doesn't side with Caleb.

The graphic was really fun to make, I hope it makes Caleb feel included, and I hope the three of us are ready, willing, and able to bust out a dubya in whatever situation we're faced against tonight.

That's probably it from me for ep 2! Peace out dudes.