1. Rough blindside tonight with the Idol in your pocket. Did you ever have the urge to play it tonight?

Yeah, the whole time. Honestly that was the worst blindside I've ever been part of, it was way more personal than it had to be. Nick definitely overplayed me. But yeah, I was tortured over whether or not to play it. I had the window open, ready to post it. But the thing is, is that I've leaned a LOT on Woo this game. He really is brilliant strategically, and he's been my rock through this whole game. We've gotten super close throughout this, and he's talked me down off a lot of ledges, and I trust him more than I trust myself when it comes to strategy. And he was 100% convinced that we were fine. Neither one of us questioned Nick, who proposed the split, for a second. I was sketchy on Rachel, and I was freaking out about holding guaranteed safety in my hands and not playing it, but Woo calmed me down and convinced me not to play it. I'm absolutely positive it was not out of any kind of malice, because he was just as blindsided as I was. It was just an unfortunate instance of having wayyyyy too much trust in the wrong person. I'd only found the idol just a few hours before the vote, and I honestly almost wish I'd never found it at all. Or transferred it to Woo before the deadline if I wasn't going to play it, which I also almost did.

2. What do you think went down with the vote? Why do you believe you were the target?

Nick and Rachel flipped. Rachel I'm not surprised about, she's whatever. I don't even know what's going on in her head, but I've never been able to stand her and I think I said super early in my confessional that she was going to be the death of me. As for Nick, I mean, I don't know. Nick and Hunter both seem to have it in their head that I had some magical information that could have saved Hunter's game, which I absolutely don't believe to be true. Liz and Neal having told me about wanting to vote out Hunter I honestly don't believe would have saved Hunter--he was still the bigger threat. All it would have done was put a bigger target on me for having better connections. But either way, Nick still HAD that information--he could have told Rita himself. But maybe it was "revenge" for that? I don't know. I would say that it was because he thought I was a bigger threat, except that he never even told me after deadline. He let me find out in the thread. You don't do that to someone you've been so extremely tight with for so Lóng unless there's a specific reason. I'm a little lost on this one, honestly.

3. Are you surprised by anyone in particular for voting against you?


I guess I covered that one, ha. But honestly. There's a way to betray friends. For example, my immediate reaction was that Neal and Liz had turned on me, and I was mad, but in a different way. Liz and Neal have never tried to hide the fact that they're here to play the game, and I have a tight bond with each of them that they were able to form with me on a separate level from the game, but Nick didn't vote me out in a way that I can respect.

4. Anything you wish you had done different with this vote? Any regrets throughout the game in general?

So many regrets. I regret not playing the idol, obviously. I regret trusting Nick. I regret not listening to Neal about not splitting the vote. I regret voting for Hunter I guess since I'm thinking that's what made Rachel mad, even though there was nothing we could do at that point. I regret not trusting my own instincts.

5. What criteria do you plan to base your final vote on?

If Woo gets there he has my vote no matter what. Otherwise, gameplay and FTC. Who made the best relationships, who actually made moves and did things in this game, who had good awareness of the game and their position in it.

6. Who are you rooting for? Who are you rooting against?

Woo, Neal, and Liz have my heart. Rooting against Rachel, Nick, Rita (who's playing great but I've been trying to get her out for a few rounds now) and Nat.

7. Which players do you think are playing the best as of right now?

Woo is kicking so much ass. I think in some ways it's going to be harder for him now than I'm gone because I was more visible, but at the same time now he won't have to deal with catering to my emotional connections and can just play straight strategy, so I think if he can stick around he's going to really shine now. He's so fucking smart and if he can stand up here in front of this jury I think you all are going to be amazed at the game he's played. I think Neal is also phenomenal, he should have been dead a Lóng time ago but he's still here, because he encompasses literally every facet of sole survivor. His social game is great, his challenge strength is fantastic, and he knows when to make the moves to further his game and when to lay low. Either one of them would be amazing winners.

8. Any final comments?

This has been such an amazing experience, thanks so much Lex and Brett for having me. I've made some incredible friends here and have learned so much about the game and even a little about myself tbh. Wish I was still in it but I'm glad to have gotten to have been here at all. :)