I am so glad homeboy Landon won that immunity, he would have probably followed me right out of the door without it. I would rather see Farris come here next over Abram though :/

Who do you think will be the first girl to go?

Well it depends. If some girls on the outs attempt a coup, I can see it being Hien. She seems to be one of the more prominent girls in the bunch but isn't the most social out of them (that would be Mary).

Otherwise, I think Keisha or Carmen if it comes down to who can be cut without making a huge war out of it.

My read on the girls power system is all over the shop though, they were pretty tightlipped about their structure.

Farris is not winning this game. He jumped ship so he ensured his survival but he alienated the rest of the guys in the process. On top of that, he's just the girls' lackey so I don't see a scenario in which he makes it to the end. And even if he does, I may not vote for him unless he checks himself

I wondered which guy was the vote who flipped on me. I figured it was him more than Jed.

I made strong bonds, socially, with the girls. Something I never developed with any of you guys because you weren't as social.

Therefore after the bullshit that was the guy's tribe of shadiness..I stuck by them versus going back with you guys.

The fact that Pryce was voting for me, obviously meant that there was some talk of voting Will or I out pre-swap. Nobody ever could explain that to me, as to why it was the case. And even going back to the David boot, of being completed blindsided so early..and never forming a strong social bond with any of you in comparison to the girls. I just couldn't trust you guys. I was working my way into anything I could with the girls. I feel like I had strong 1-on-1 bonds with many of them, I could be wrong of course. I just think having the choices of Beth/Keisha/Myself screwed me over more then anything. I feel like Beth/Keisha/Mary/Llana may be a group of 4. I think Carmen/Hien may be on the outs. Total guess.

Eh, I had no issues with your move. You would have outlasted any of the guys had they not be immune. Truth is, you were very close to leaving when Pryce did but Landon/Myself/Abram didn't want to piss Will off enough to make him flip if you went whereas if we booted Pryce, hopefully we could have kept you two on the guys side.

Farris my problem is not that you made the move that you did (it makes total sense). It's that we weren't aware of it till after it had happened so it was more of a surprise thing than anything else. I have no beef with you now and I'm sorry you're here. I just wish the circumstances had been different. Ultimately my talking to the girls was just me trying to save myself and trying to buy myself a few more days versus actually attempting to bus anyone else. It'll be fun to see which girl gets the boot though.

I just don't understand from early on why Will and I were basically segregated from you guys. I honestly think it was a dumb strategic move. We were like dying for a swap for rounds and rounds. You guys never made us feel secure, or like we were even wanted. The girls' didn't end up trusting Will. But it just didn't make any logical sense to me as to why I was being lied to so early on by Landon, and then not given 100% truth from you guys later on on the guys' tribe.

I have no ill will towards any of you guys, I think I just wish I understood it better. I just felt like I was constantly in a bad position and could never recover. I can't wait to see confessionals or something to honestly understand wtf was going on in that boys tribe? I still don't get it.

Round 1 Landon/David/Will approached me and it was to be a final 4 deal.
Landon then voted out David and never told WIll/I that the vote swapped.

I felt like from that moment on, I wasn't apart of the majority on the tribe. I was never "in" on any of the major discussions, or always felt a bit out of the loop.

When we voted out Pryce, he was targeting me. Nobody explained why, or anything. I just don't get the logic in keeping Will/I in the dark and on the outs..knowing we would have a swap in the future. And knowing we were good in the challenges. You guys basically forced us to want to align with females come a swap/merge. Because we honestly couldn't work with you.

Well first round, me and Abram formed an alliance. We roped in Landon as he was the one we liked the most and then Pryce and Jed just got roped in. Then we heard that David had formed an alliance with you and Will. So when we lost, I told Trent that David was the target and he just went for it.

After that, Trent was an easy boot and then out of the alliance of five, you were the only outsider that wasn't immune. That is why Pryce was targeting you. Thing is, I really liked Will and he was pretty adamant he wouldn't want you to leave. I know that Landon and Abram liked Will more than Pryce and so we kicked Pryce out because he just didn't talk with us much. I was kind of hoping that by building a bridge with Will, he would bring you along. I mean, you were the one guy I talked to the least because we were rarely on at the same time.

It wasn't my intention to make you feel like an outsider, but I never really had as much time to talk to you as I did some of the others. We couldn't exactly say "Pryce is after you because he is in our alliance and you are the person who isn't" because saying that would have made you flip even faster than you did.

Also, getting voted the juror who should be back in the game was really touching <3

Also, getting voted the juror who should be back in the game was really touching <3

goddamnit i shouldn't be here

the girls power structure started with me/hien/mary as a solid three, ilana was fourth, keisha was fifth, but it shifted around a little and i thought i was still at the core but i guess not???? i really don't know how i got voted out but i'm guessing they realized how well i'd been playing everyone. maybe keisha compared notes with someone and realized literally all of my game talk with her was based on lies lmao. I REALLY JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW I GOT HERE AND IT'S REALLY BAFFLING AND I JUST WANNA KNOW

that being said if mary makes the final two it's going to be hard for me to vote for anyone else because she's the sweetest fucking bitch on the planet and i want to lesbian marry her

You were the only girl I may have voted against Mary to win. That girl is freaking adorable.

Yeah if it's a Final 2 of Mary/another girl, I don't know how I could vote for the other girl