I suppose this challenge was relevant in a Greek sense because this tribal council could end up being an arena bloodbath. Could possibly be for me. Do I regret abstaining from the challenge after finding out Beth only posted once? Sure, a little. But everyone on our tribe abstained except for her. So maybe we were all thinking the same thing.

Alright, so yes, thinking about having to do all of the letters completely over again was dreadful for me and I could have posted what I had already done, but thought instead that I would raise my stamina and speed points. I could not predict that everyone excluding Beth would be doing the same thing.

So understandably, it worries me. I've felt like I've been one of the more inactive members for a while on top of not being able to really connect with the tribe, even though I am pretty loyal to them just on the basis that they are phenomenal when it comes to team work and I really like that in a group of people.

I feel like we've got a good group of everyone and I'm not sure I fit in. It's upsetting because there are some girls who try to make me feel like I fit in but then there are others who haven't bothered.

The group chat has also been surprisingly quiet today. So it makes me paranoid the chat has been moved and the one that is open is only open to pacify me, only it's not.

Alright so, I was told I could be leaving the game this Judgement and I went on a massive campaign to stop that from happening. Apparently it's between Rachel and I, but I'm the more prominent person at the moment because of my lack of presence in the game.

Believe me, I get it, and I am already working my ass off to change that. I went individually to Keisha, Carmen and Ilana after Hien told me I was on the chopping block and asked each of them if Rachel was a viable option.

Keisha was the only one who wasn't really receptive to anything I was saying but I'm hoping that Carmen, Ilana and Hien (at least making it look like they've) got my back is a starting point.

I just have to get Mary and Vanessa and Beth on board. I'm hoping I can get some help. That would be a plus. So I'm definitely doing the endurance now. Yay.

Hell, whatever happens, I just got to watch a fantastic start to season 4 of Game of Thrones. I can leave happy.

These double Judgements screw me over every time.