First off, I want to thank Abi for her wonderful job of hosting, and the co-hosts for being the support beams om her rollercoaster. And, I want to thank all of you for being such fierce competition! All of you are fantastic players in one form or another, and I have massive amounts of respect for all of you.

That being said, my post-merge game was sub-par. I self voted. I threw a few votes that were unnecessary and weren't smart. I didn't win a single challenge. I backstabbed people. And people didn't like me for some strange reason (I know, right? Shocked me when I found out ;) ).

But I'd like to think that my game wasn't BAD. Hell, it was pretty decent if it got me here.

I came into this game wanting to be a sleeper. I wanted to coast along, hide behind the bigger threats as they aim the guns at each other, and then coast to the FTC from there while making a few small moves behind the scenes. And for the most part, I'd like to think that I succeeded at it.

My premerge game was pretty great. Granted, I didn't stay as UTR as I intended (sorry Kim & Stephen), but I had pretty decent connections and I was set up in a pretty good position. I was aligned with Kelly, Dolly, Zmanda, and Sierra, I had ties with Yul, Michelle, Heather, and Shontayla. And I was looking pretty good for the immediate future.

Then I found out that Kmanda, the very person I betrayed, got to pick the newest tribes. Yaaaayyyyyy...

I managed to not get nominated and I tried everything that I could in that challege afterwards. I almost won the challenge (damn you, Yul!) and everything seemed lost. But then Zmanda Dues Ex Machina-ed me with Michelle, Sierra, and kinda Heather to save me! I honestly thought I was done.

After that though, I made an alliance with Kim. I legitimately enjoyed talking with her and it might be a decent idea to have someone to keep the targets off of each other. And that lasted for a very long time. And she kept the target off of my back, as I kept the target off of hers.

After Jeremiah fucked us over twice (you sly dog), everything seemed lost. I made a silly move with the mariachi band with Zmanda (to be fair, I was high as fuck at the time) and painted the dot in the middle of my back. Then I was able to ride out my alliances through to Sierra.

Then my game took a dive.

I stabbed Eric in the back after he would have saved me, or maybe not (I was told that he told Kmanda that he wasn't voting her, but I don't know how legit that claim actually is), but the line was blurred and I made a deal (thank you again for the Ex Machina of the Dues variety), and I wanted to honor that. And that wasn't smart of me. I should have stayed on the block and gone to a tiebreaker.

I also agreed to set aside my differences with Jeremiah and align with him. I figured I let the threats get too far without doing anything, and that the only way I could make it to the end and possibly win was against Jeremiah and Heather. Jeremiah fed me info (and probably played me) and I fed him info.

Next round, when all hell was breaking loose, I was on the loose in Chicago. I was trying to balance both real life and the game at once, but well, we see how that worked. I threw my vote, pissed off Jerri, Kim, and Zmanda. But I didn't want to vote Kim because I legit liked her and wanted to keep my options open, but I didn't vote Jeremiah either because I wanted him to stay in the game. So I threw my vote with a piss poor excuse of not being sure on Heather's thrown vote, all while I was walking in downtown Chicago.

Jeremiah's boot was where me, him, and Heather started targeting Jerri. The second she lost, she was done-zo. But she won, and gave her necklace to Kmanda. I brought up the prospect of voting Jerri, but Jeremiah was convinced that she would use it on herself. And, well, we saw how that played out.

Zmanda... that boot was where I REALLY tanked. I self voted, I wasn't around for the vote, and I don't have a valid excuse for that. And that's embarrassing for me.

As with last round, I was dead sure that Jerri was voting Kmanda, along with Heather. That was what me and Heather had talked about. But I made a promise to Kmanda that I would vote Heather with her in exchange for a possible jury vote and some lobbying. And after Jerri's vague answer, I was certain in my ignorance that Kmanda was going to be her vote, I called her out, and she completely shut me down, and when I found out that Jerri was voting Heather... well... I made a promise, and I decided to stick to it.

All in all, I know everyone is probably deciding between Kmanda and Jerri. I'm not THAT stupid. But I hope that you guys see that I wasn't just a mindless goat. I did make moves. I made the right connections at the right times. And I don't think I'm as much of a goat as some of you might think. Plus, I had at least 10 votes cast against me, not including my self vote. Being able to last this long and make the F3 with 32 other awesome players, on my second ORG, being the name written down the most, and going on a vacation during very crucial rounds and managing to survive? That's a personal win and a learning experience in my book.

I know a lot of you probably have questions, or comments, albeit harsh or otherwise, and I can't wait to read every one of them. I think I played a good game even through all the poor decisions, the bad luck, and the backstabs, and I hope that all of you can at least respect my game, even if you don't vote for me.