Well! I guess I better do a confessional.

So let's run down what has happened since shall we?

1) Jerri, Jeremiah, Sierra, and I were successful in voting out Mike. Of course, he was pissy as usual and ended up quitting jury. I felt bad, but after talking to everyone, I didn't feel as bad because they told me how he was talking about controlling me. So good riddance. However, I will need to make sure everyone knows I had a major part in voting out Mike.

2) Next out was Sierra. Pretty sure everyone was in on this except Sierra, Jerri, and myself. This was a bad round. The only round that I didn't have a finger on the pulse of this game and it was terrifying. Luckily, during this round, I gained Sierra's trust even more. While she probably was a threat, she was an ally and I do miss her... She wished me luck in winning the game.

3) After Sierra was Eric. Again, I had nothing to do with his eviction. Jerri and Jeremiah were safe because they had won Co-HoH's. Kmanda and Erik were nominated. Kmanda won PoV and Kim was put up. Then Zmanda used her idol. I knew she had one. I have known for a long time that she had one and wanted to get her out ASAP, but I never had the numbers (I'll get to this soon). She used her Diamond PoV to take "her man" off the block and put up Eric, who was apparently her enemy for a long time. Who knew? I didn't. I mean, maybe I'm just ignorant, but when they are all working together against me and start devouring themselves? That's fine with me... Eric wished me and Kmanda luck.

4) Lastly was Kim. And how weird this round was. When Eric was voted out, he told me that Kmanda MAY be wanting to get Kim out. So that gave me some hope. I immediately began questioning Kmanda about her vote, but she was not really interested in talking about it. At the same time, I was talking to Kim. We have actually been talking a bit since Mike was voted off and I'm glad we did. I never hated Kim, but getting to know her, I actually like her. Although we are still on opposite alliances. Kim eventually told me she would not vote for me. Uh oh. If I don't promise this back, I feel like she would immediately think I'm voting for her, which I honestly was planning to do. I honestly fell asleep though and never responded to that issue. The next morning, Kmanda didn't respond and so I finally told Kim, "I promise I won't vote for you". And you know what? KMANDA TELLS ME SHE WANTSTO VOTE KIM NOW! Man, her timing is bad. So now, we have 7 votes. Jerri is for sure voting for Kim. Jeremiah agrees to vote for Kim, but Jeremiah is a shady snake and lies all the time apparently and is all over the place so I don't know if he's honest or not. Kmanda says shes voting for Kim. I mull over the idea that Kmanda is just lying to me, but she has a point that that would be silly right before FTC. So I believe her. Now I debate if I'm going to vote for Kim or throw my vote away and keep my promise. At the same time, I'm told that Zmanda, Kmanda, Kim, and Jeremiah are splitting the votes between Jerri and I in case Jerri plays her idol on herself or me. All I can do is trust that Jeremiah isn't with that plan. Especially if Kmanda isn't on that plan.

Kmanda then tells Kim that she is voting for her and Kim is mad. Zmanda is also mad. Kim tells me I'm voting for her with Kmanda, Jeremiah, and Jerri. I tell her I'm not because I promised her I wouldn't even though I haven't decided if I was or wasn't voting for her. She tells me that she is so mad at Kmanda because she hates when people break their word. That tells me I need to keep mine to Kim. She asks me who I am voting for so she can possibly get Erik and Zmanda to vote with her against who I'm throwing my vote at. Of course, I can't do that so I have to throw my vote at Zmanda or Erik. Erik throws his vote at Jerri, Zmanda and Kim vote for Jeremiah, I vote for Erik, and Kmanda, Jerri, and Jeremiah vote or Kim. Kim leaves and wishes only Zmanda and me luck in the future.

SO. Now I'm worried that since everyone seemed to be on my side when they left (except Mike, who quit jury anyway) will put a target on my back as a FTC threat. I still plan to go to the final 3 with Jerri and Jeremiah because they seem the easiest to beat. Or some combination of them with Erik. Also, Zmanda publicly attacked Kmanda and they started a fight. They both clearly seem to be voting for the other. And it's like, do I vote out Kmanda cause she is the bigger threat at FTC? Or do I vote out Zmanda, who is less of a threat in challenges and FTC, but is a villain who I would feel bad letting into the F5 over Kmanda? It also depends on what Jerri, Jeremiah, and Erik want to do. *Sigh* I hope Jerri isn't planning on turning on me anytime soon. That would be silly to keep both Amanda's in the game right now... Jerri has her idol, which this is the last round it can be played, AND she just won individual immunity. I wonder if she will play her idol on someone and do some surprising moves here at the end, or what.