So everyone is a pussy. And everyone is a bitch. And everyone is shady.

For two weeks now, Jerri and I have been wanting to get Kim out and for two weeks now, Erik and Mike have been fighting us on it. Jerri created a "Last Stand" alliance that consisted of Mike, Erik, Eric, herself, and I. Like what kind of last stand is that? I think she is a little clueless, but you know what? I don't blame her because no one is being honest, no one knows who is really working with who. Especially when it comes to Mike, Erik, and Zmanda. Jerri exiled Zmanda thining she would be a vote WITH Kim and Kmanda. So Erik is hardcore wanting Jeremiah out and Jerri is hardcore wanting Kim out. With Zmanda exiled, Sierra and Jeremiah are totally clueless as to what is going on. Kim and Kmanda would seem to want Jerri out, but Mike says they want Erik out. See? This is what I don't get. They all want Erik out (even Mike wants Erik out, but I'll get back to that in a minute...), but Erik has no clue of it. Of course he shouldn't if they really want him out, but I don't know if they have him brainwashed or what. He is just being dumb. He's smarter than that. He wants Jeremiah out because Jeremiah isn't a threat now, but totally will be at the FTC. Ok, well, 1)I disagree with that. 2)How does he figure Jeremiah will even make FTC? 3)WHY would Jeremiah be a threat at FTC if he hasn't done anything this whole time? I can't say much since I haven't been able to do anything. Like, I've been trying but I'm dealing with morons right now!

Jerri is so paranoid, Sierra is not a moron, but she is hardly here and gets told EVERYTHING secondhand by EVERYONE pretty much, Erik doesn't listen, and Mike... Oh Mike. So I know Mike outside of this game. He's the only person I know. And Mike has a HUGE ego. Like, HUGE. So Mike has an idol and Mike is not gonna play his idol until close to the end, if his ego will even let him play it. I am working with Mike, but it's so annoying. He thinks he's running the game and he very well may be right now. He is pretty much telling everyone how to vote and it doesn't help when I run up to him asking him who we are voting for. And at any point, if it's him or me, he will make sure it's me.

My problem is I really do like Mike. I consider him a friend, but I want to win this game. In all other instances that Mike and I have been with each other, I have played a very honest game with integrity and everything. However... In this game, I am Heather. Heather is playing to win. And so Heather has to cut out the threats. I feel as though Mike will either take this personally or just hate me for it, and I truly will feel bad, but it's a game and I hope he can see that for once, I took him out when I had the chance and he will respect it.

Oh. This is happening because of course, I ran and told Jeremiah that he is the target and even though I don't trust Jeremiah for shit, he's not a threat. And I'm getting furious with the fact that no one wants to take out the power players (probably because they are all aligned with each other). So Jerri, Jeremiah, Sierra, and I are planning on sticking together for the rest of the game. I don't know how much I trust any of them. Especially since Jerri and Jeremiah have done shady shit in the past, but otherwise I'll be taken to the end as a goat or I will just be picked off by that other side. So here's to taking chances...

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