I'm so fucking pissed rn and I need somewhere to vent. Shontayla and Jerri are both playing Ronnie because "Eric's side is too big." WHAT'S MY FUCKING SIDE?!?!?! I have Kim, Monica (who's inactive), Kamanda (who's been inactive for rounds), and Ronnie. That's five! I don't trust Jeremiah or Mike enough to even call them my side. So how the fuck is 5 out of 14 huge?!? Stupid bitches who can't do math are about to fuck me over and I'm so livid. Ronnie is going home this round and there's nothing he can do about it because Mike is too much of a fucking moron to idol him or tell him about any of this. And I go into the merge in the minority ready to be picked off unless I'm lucky enough to walk into a BB round and win HoH which isn't even a guarantee because Zamanda and her stupid fucking puppet Erik just got two free pinatas this round and will probably have an idol. I knew I should've thrown the challenge. I was going to but I got too comfortable. I'm pissed rn.

Is there a way to give up immunity?

I'm probably being irrational but I'm still curious.

We should've thrown that challenge. I have no idea what's happening now. Ronnie is in the dark and Kamanda isn't around so my only source of information is Mike who really only tells stuff to Kim. Right now he is apparently willing to idol Kamanda but not Ronnie so he may try to push the target on Kamanda and then idol her. Seems a bit complicated but there's not much else I can hope for. We'll have to see but this "Eric's alliance is too big" thing is really fucking stupid and I'm really looking forward to embarrassing Jerri again like I did last time. Where's a Monopoly board when you need it?

Kamanda came back today which is amazing. The other half of Chilltown is back and she already went to work. Mike has been seeing me as shady for a little while now so Kamanda made him feel comfortable again and he and Jerri who calmed down after last night should be voting with Ronnie for Shontayla. That's a tie. And then Mike may be able to get Heather. We'll see. If Ronnie goes, there's little more I can do but I'm hoping for the best. I think we merge next round and with Ronnie, Kamanda, Kim, and Monica, I think I'll be in an awesome spot.

Eric Stein @ 1/8/2015 15:43

I was king of the world.

Boy how this has changed. So we concluded with me having enough numbers to split should my tribe lose again. Yul is gone. Michelle is gone. But I’m tired of tribal. I just want a round off so I jump at the opportunity when the challenge is basically capture the flag. I defended fairly well but I really didn’t have to do much since Kim, Sundra, and Erik basically destroyed the offensive part. No one even bothered when they saw the score and I didn’t have to defend too much. Ronnie and I and Kim and Mike had a plan to get each other pinatas but Erik and Zamanda just decided to make it blatantly obvious that they’re desperate and possibly close to having an idol by using the mariachi band when no one was even around to attack. So they both got pinatas. In the end, we won the challenge but I quickly realized why that’s probably not the best thing in the world.

The other tribe was going to tribal. I knew things were shakier over there than they were here but I still thought that Ronnie, Mike, Kamanda, and Jerri were a tight four that would vote together and that Shont being flipped was a possibility. Well, Shont has been playing Ronnie to get info out of him and has no intention of actually flipping. She has been with Zamanda and Sierra the whole time and was hoping to get Ronnie to flush an idol. This is what I expected tbh especially since Kim had mentioned it to me earlier. But what I didn’t expect is that Jerri wasn’t 100% with Ronnie either. Jerri apparently thought my “side” was too big and was considering voting with the other four to take out Ronnie. She was debating with Mike about what to do and of course Mike is doing what he can but I also know that Mike might be ok with losing Ronnie. It’s no secret that Ronnie is a number for me and I don’t think Mike trusts me a ton rn so he could very easily take this opportunity to just pick off an ally of mine.

Mike ends up being able to smooth Jerri over and get her to vote for Shontayla with him, Ronnie, and Kamanda. Mike also gets Heather on board which is admittedly a bit shocking but they are extremely close, probably more than anyone realizes. So Shont got 5 votes and went home which is pretty great considering how close Ronnie was to going. But I know that just because he stayed and now I have him, Kamanda, Kim, Mike, Monica, Jeremiah, etc., I’m still not in a good spot. I’m very aware that I’m the Fabio of this season. I’m the big target out in front of everyone who the other side is desperately going to try to take out. I’m always going to be the target for them and my allies who are playing both sides will be able to hide behind me. It’s an annoying spot to be in but if I can slide through for a while I can still get very far like Fabio did and then hope for the best. All I can do for now is take it one round at a time.