So, it's been five days since my last confessional, and I'd be more apologetic if not for the fact that nothing at all happened for three or four of those days. We're swapped, there's new tribemates, and I'll talk about them when I get some more time, but here's a quick lowdown on whats happening generically.

We swap, and now I'm on a tribe with Monica, Jerri, Julie, Dick, Yul, and Sundra. Now, if there was no ambassador twist, I might be able to make some magic happen, pull of a 4-3 blindside on Yul or something. And when Eric was coming over there were definitely some whispers about doing exactly that, 5-3 style. But now Heather's coming over, apparently she/Yul are tight, so we're gonna have to delay it and hopefully just do an easy 7-1 Sundra vote.

Thoughts on tribemates ~ coming soon to a theatre near you~

So, I WAS gonna do a quick analysis write up on my tribemates. But when I popped on to AIM, I had some unread messages from Amanda.



I don't know if its true or not, but I have to at least start acting on it - if Heather's leaking plans from my tribe...well, may as well fight back, ne?

Yup, Jeremiah confirmed it. Yul's gunning for me. Game on, brotha'.

So I thought to myself "How can I get myself out of this predicament?" "A-Ha!" I said, a grin on my lips, a twinkle in eye. "Lie! Lying solves EVERYTHING!"

So, I went to Yul, basically told him I knew I was going, and when he asked who told me, I lied and said Julie. Apparently it was convincing, and I'm kinda surprised he believed me, especially since they apparently went on call and a bunch of trust reaffirming stuff. He could just be leading me on, especially since he thinks I have an idol, but who knows?

(Think I spun a decent tale as to how I got the supposed idol, by the way. Just said I had it to give to Danni, but she didn't show up in time to actually use it, so I was just left with it. Half truths are kinda the best truths, not gonna lie....ok that pun was awful I'm sorry.)

Meanwhile, I'm actually working on getting the candy together (My 1, Mike's 3, Eric's 3, and Amanda's 1) to get an idol for Mike, which if I feel in danger he can give to me. Also it means that if I do go out without playing one it doesn't get wasted. Mike and Eric are also working alternate angles to help pressure people off of voting me.

It's all kinda a jumbled mess but now Yul seems to want to work with me and is actively trying to get votes off of me. I just gotta juggle these chainsaws of stories and hope I stick around.

My head hurts. Cliffnotes:

- Yul decided to save me.

- Yul got Dick's vote, I got Monica's.

- Julie and Yul made a 3-3 split.

- Actual vote will go 4 Julie, 3 Me, 1 Monica if all works out.

- I am still fucking terrified.

If this works, you went home through no fault of your own - I may as well have been the (mostly unintentional) architect of your demise. Fantastic player, through and through, no matter how this ends - I just hope I ended up with the upper hand.

Sorry I haven’t been confessing a ton. It’s just that, given who won the HOH this BB round, and given the makeup of this tribe, there’s REALLY not a lot to talk about. I haven’t even really been on all that much, because...well, I don’t have much to do, aside from reconfirm with my allies. It’s exhausting being around constantly, especially when there’s not a ton I can do to really up my general standing in the game.

Mike isn’t putting me up, we had a talk the other night, and he seems to want me in Finals with him. Which I’m fine with - in general I’m fine being a meatshield for Mike here, because A. he’s playing an excellent game this time round, he has a better chance than me and B. he deserves better than how Epic 3 turned out for him.

Been talking with Eric again, which is always a fun time. He’s a good guy to chat with, and always good to bounce strategic ideas off of. Sure he’s a snake, but he’s in my corner - besides, there’s no reason for him to really want me out, since I’m basically a vote tied to him at the moment.

Apparently Amanda Z / Yul are tight. Which is probably to be expected, but it's a shame she seems to be working more with his side than ours. I’m not entirely sure why I’m not gunning for Yul - I guess its just cause I like the dude, and think he deserves to stick around a bit longer, especially after I duped him into eliminating one of his closest allies last round.

I actually talked to him about that the other night. He basically said he found out, but I had shattered the trust between the two, so he stuck with the vote. I’m kinda doubting if that's the true logic, Mike said he could’ve pulled strings with Heather and Sundra if it came down to it, so I think something a la that might’ve happened with Yul - but I suppose that reasoning works too. He seemed to respect the move, even if he seemed kinda irritated in general with me. The conversation wasn’t bad or anything, but it was...odd. Something felt off, I think he’s trying something, which I fully expect - Mike mentioned he was trying to get me on the block to flush my supposed idol, lol.

Other than that, not a ton happening. I suppose a flip against Amanda K could happen, but people seem to want Dolly from what I’m seeing. I guess it just rides on Monica, who I’m working with, but who I haven’t really gotten to chat with...well because I haven’t gotten to chat much with most of the tribe, haha.

But yeah, thats all I really got for this round. Sorry for the shortness, not a ton happening. According to Jeremiah a lot of stuff is happening with Dick’s HOH on the other side, Sierra and Michelle are noms. Pay attention to that, that’s interesting, haha.

I had a mini heart attack when Kim gave immunty to EriC, because I thought it was EriK. Thankfully, the confusion was soon cleared up (and Eric seemed fairly amused by my confusion) so, barring an idol play, Erik should go.

I'm letting Erik pitch to me. Because, y'know, part of me wants to keep him around - I have no personal relationship with him, but the guy wants to play. and strategically, I understand keeping him. When we go into merge, its gonna be a clusterfuck, and Amanda is a soldier for Yul, who will almost certainly go against our group - Erik is certainly much more of a wildcard than her. The only real reason to keep Zmanda is...well....casue we all like her a bunch, lol. Which honestly will probs carry the day, but still - its not hurting anyone to hear him out, hopefully anyway.