Okay I know I've been putting confessionals off, apologies for that. Going to give another summary (although hopefully longer than the previous one) and do something large at some point in the future but it's literally fucking late as hell and I have shit I have to do in a few hours and I have yet to sleep so this … won't be great. I've been telling myself I can't sleep until I do this so you get an incredibly sleep deprived shitfessional. Enjoy.

Ok so round one we SOMEHOW managed to win that first immunity which is beyond me considering how awful that tribe seemed to be when it came to competency – Jerri and I were just about two of the only people on that cesspit that weren't completely braindead, and we were the only two people who weren't godawful in that challenge – the vest makers did shitty and Frankie who was with me and Jerri on the live was an idiot and cost us over half our vests and got himself eliminated. Ugh.

Anyway Yul hit me up at that point and he was SUCH A BIG FAN OF EVEL DICK blah blah blah. At this point I was only half playing my Dick up out of boredom of doing it ALL THE TIME so he got me on the good side of the bed. We talked and I asked to be red rovered. I said I thought I was in danger and blah blah etcetera. Now I didn't actually, I just thought it would be funny if I got taken away. Plus I knew I'd be getting busier as the game went on so hey I may as well experience as much as I can while I can. I actually think I was okay over there just because everyone else was so useless that the fact I was an unbearable asshole was almost completely ignorable. People's reactions to me since I left seems to confirm that. Whatever.

Anyway I came over to Escencia which pretty much sucks in its own way. I actually regret being red rovered because while I thought it would be entertaining and interesting it … wasn't all that much. Just about everybody is a dull gamebot that I don't care for and Julie seems to think I'm “rude” when she makes racist jokes left and right. Like … okay? Hypocritical much? Holy shit get a backbone. I wasn't even being MEAN to her. She hasn't seen me be mean jesus.

But whatever. Apparently there's this giant epic twisted whateverthefuckitis pregame which … I shouldn't be surprised? Since it's a returning players game. I wasn't even in to try hard in the first place so I shouldn't be shocked there's all that shit going on. But yeah apparently Yul thought he'd be taking me over into a majority alliance but lo and behold the kid fucked up and I ended up in a shitty spot along with him and Jeremiah and Heather to a lesser extent. But Yul hates Heather and spends 10 hours of every day screaming about how much of a “liability” she is when I actually can stand her. WTF? I don't know WTF she did to him but he despises the chick.

Jeremiah and Yul are the only two I'm really aligned with which I guess is fine. I think I'm in a shitty spot but there's nothing I can do about that. I'm not trying hard in this game because trying hard in games is fuckin' stressful and too much work for me right now. I'm fucking around and seeing where it gets me. I've already made it farther than I thought I would so it's clearly working out somehow. Even though I have yet to be vulnerable so I think I'll just go the second I am LMFAO. Oh well. It's at least been more interesting than it would have been if I had played “strategically” and made alliances and shit left and right. That's boring as hell at this point in my org career.

We took out Ronnie and Courtney because they were apart of the pregame shitfest and got Julie and Sierra on our sides. Sierra is okay and I would be fine with Julie if she wasn't shit talking me while being even more of an asshole than I ever was to her. Apparently she can insult black people all she wants but when I say a few passive aggressive comments, I am the devil. Sure my cast photo makes me look a bit like an impish demon but still.

I DID give Ronnie my Pinata when I got over since he asked first but yeah that's just a good thing since he ended up getting taken out. That way there's less of a shot of weird shit like idols lurkin' around. I also got a double vote in the pinata for ME which is sweet? I told Yul about it and have considered telling Jeremiah about it but I haven't gotten around to it yet.

Anyway we then won the next challenge after I wasted a whole day of my life spamming CTRL V for an online internet game. My time is so meaningful. Fuck me.

Then I somehow won both HOH AND VETO this round. Like holy shit how. Both of them were basically luck based since the veto was kind of shittily designed in a way it was SUPER scripted. I don't know how I won it since I spent three hours bitching about it to anyone who would listen but whatever.

I nominated Yul and Danni because Danni never fuckin' talked to me until AFTER I won the HOH so … that was fucking easy. Sure she's been fine since I've talked to her but … really there was no reason NOT to nom her. She's a part of the pregame and also showed no interest in talking to me even when I tried instigating until I HAD power.

My Yul nomination was all his plan. If I nom him as a pawn and we fake a fallout, people don't think we're THAT close I guess. I think it's way too fucking overthought and will probably just cause us MORE problems than it'll help us out but whatever. It might work. I didn't really care enough to object. But yeah he also didn't want to vote for Danni because apparently he has his dick hard for her and loves her too much to do that. But whatever. I won the veto, secured my nominations, and I made sure to go around before noms and see how people felt about a Danni vote and everybody seemed for it. If she stays, I'll be blindsided, but eh. If people are going to be lying fucks I'd rather them do it now so I know in advance what I'm dealing with. But I think it should work out.

Only really trust Jeremiah and Yul, moreso Jeremiah since Yul seems to be talking to EVERYBODY and is a bit of a basketcase when it comes to Heather and shit. Sierra and Heather I trust to an extent and Shontayla I think I might have on my side? Besides that … not much going for me. My gameplay is shit, my social game is shit, the only thing I have for me is challenge strength. Apparently. Even though I've barely fucking tried with the exception of the posting challenge. But hey whatever. I'm probably premerge but it's been … decent so far? I'm not stressing too much about the game which is nice. Whatever happens happens. But hopefully Danni GTFOs this round.

I'd like a swap tbh because I'm bored of this tribe and want new, exciting things to happen, but I doubt it'll happen next round, probably a round or two after. Lame.

Also I have a final two with Jerri that I intend on keeping and Fabio is fucking annoying and won't stop spamming me about how I'm this "Shane" guy like holy fuck I don't even KNOW a Shane leave me alone. I think he's in love with me. Creep.

Whatever there's so much I didn't talk about but I need sleep bye.