God. Fucking. Dammit!

(This upcoming paragraph describes everything except the Fabio boot)

EVERY single time I try to make a move, it always, ALWAYS, backfires. It's happened this ENTIRE game, and it just continues round after round! I just don't get it. At all. My luck in this game is inhuman. Maybe god is paying me back for all the times I've asked for him to damn things that he didn't want to? Fuck, I don't know.

I think I've made decent enough relationships over the course of the game to be able to weather it out over the next few rounds, at least. Zmanda, Eric, and Kim seem to like me, Jeremiah, Sierra, Kmanda, Jerri, and Heather seem to not hate me. So I should be able to stay in the game a bit longer. I should be able to cover my tracks somewhat well. No one besides Zmanda, who was out of the vote, told me to vote Mike or Eric, and Jerri and Heather approach me with a solid, concrete plan? Fuck yeah I'm jumping on board. Who the fuck wouldn't? In any other situation, I probably would be fucked, but they've set it up so easy to where I can make a decent argument that makes sense!

Fucking Heather, man. Fuck her. One of the reasons she went back on Mike was because, get this, "She doesn't want to be a goat." BURNING BRIDGES DOESN'T MAKE YOU A BETTER PLAYER. Making moves doesn't make you a good player; making the right moves, the necessary moves, the essential moves. THAT is what makes you a good player. You want to know what doesn't make someone a good player? NOT BEING ABLE TO KEEP A SECRET, *COUGH COUGH* HEATHER *COUGH*.

I hate this notion that the amount of moves you make = the better player you are. If that was the case, Russell Hantz would be one of the best survivor players of all time. BUT HE'S NOT, BECAUSE HE'S AN ABSOLUTE FUCKWAD! JUST LIKE HEATHER! HOLY Fucking shit!

Her and Jerri keep saying that they wanted to flush out his idol, even though Eric has told me that the idol doesn't exist, and that he lied to get a target off of his back. I mean, it sorta makes sense. Mike isn't the brightest bulb in the first place. And you know? I don't really think that Mike had an idol.

Now, my next point. YOU DON'T MAKE AN ALLIANCE AND THEN GO BACK ON IT IN THE SAME ROUND, SAY IT WITH ME KIDS. That makes fucking NO sense. INSERT JURY VOTES HERE ---------> . Going back on promises is a part of the game. I get that. I know that. But holy fuck, you just fought so hard for this goddamn alliance, and then you tear it down in the same fucking round? How stupid can you fucking, emphasis on FUCKING, be?!?! If you go back on promises, alliances, you need to make sure that you do it with respect, with pride, make sure that it's in your best interest, make sure that you have the charisma to pull it off, or any form of social skill, and make sure that you're not Heather. Like, Jesus fuck. I really hope this doesn't secure Heather's spot at a F3, because I really, REALLY want to see her go now. Ugh. Fuck her in the ear. I defended her a bit before, but after this round... it's going to be unrelenting.

I'm kind of playing up an empathetic card right now (partially because of strategy, partially because of how helpless I always feel in this goddamn game. The ratio is like, 10/90, or like 7/93). It seems like Kim and Zmanda took the 'bait'. It really feels weird calling it that, because it's genuine, but there's definitely some form of strategy behind it, you know? It's hard to describe. But I just got done with a long ass car ride, so I'm going to get the rest of this challenge shit done and then go to bed. I'm fucking beat, in like, every sense of that phrase.