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Before I begin, I want to say thanks to Julie for hosting this and for casting me. I also want to say thank you to everyone that's been involved in this game. I greatly appreciate the hard work from everyone.

Coming into this game, I knew I would struggle in 2 specific areas: socially and emotionally.

Early on in the game, I worked my hardest to communicate with everyone. Sometimes I was able to get into more detailed conversations, but most of the time they were very dry. I was struggling to mesh with people, and I was struggling to build actual relationships - at one point I actually googled how to keep a conversation going because I kept dropping them and it made me feel bad. Even though I was invited into this 6 person alliance, I still felt like I wasn't where I wanted to be when it came to relationships.

In the first HoH comp, my goal was not to get nominated. That was all I wanted. I didn't want to be the first evicted.

I started looking for more options in the second round. I started growing closer to George and Devin, and they brought in Nicole and we formed this 4 person alliance, but things became interesting when Nakomis' quit and outed the 6 person alliance. It was then I knew I needed to distance myself from them.

And it was there I made my first mistake of the game by following my emotions.

It felt like after that everything started going wrong. I was thrown on the block, and I was basically evicted 4-3, but Metta used the nullifier to tie the vote, and Drew saved me. I was thrown on the block again and again. I felt like I was disposable, and that I was alone. I was starting to struggle talking to people again. But I started growing closer to Merron. I poured out a lot of info to him, and I discussed things, and we ended up making a f2.

We had this big elaborate plan on how to make it to the end, but when he was evicted the following round, I was alone again, and I was furious.

And then when Alex and Devin was on the block, I made a f2 with Alex and we came up with this plan that would save him, but once again everything was going wrong.

A lot of my relationships were broken and I was at a really low place in the game where I didn't see a way out.

At the f5, I made a f2 with Devin before the veto results were even revealed, but I was crushed when Drew won the veto. I thought I was gone, and I told Drew I would respect his decision. The round before that, I told him I was afraid of being auto evicted because that's such a crappy way to go out, and I did tell him I would be bitter, but who wouldn't be bitter over being auto evicted?

I fully expected him to use the veto, but when he didn't I felt like things were starting to go the right way. George said he would save me, and where I had the F2 with Devin, I felt confident he'd keep me in the event of a tie.

I'm honestly not very happy with myself for the way I handled that round. I definitely could've done things a lot differently.

Before the f4 hoh results, I decided my best option would be to evict George. Not because he was a threat, but because I needed to take a risk. I really thought about what Metta said on his way out, and it played an important factor in this decision. I discussed it with Devin, and Drew winning that HoH was the best care scenario. And then I won the veto. I spent hours upon hours studying the board and taking notes before the comp was even revealed. By winning the veto, I was able to keep my word to Devin.

I know I wasn't a comp beast. I know I sucked at many of them, but I clawed my way from the bottom to make it to where I am today. I know at times I was emotional, and that I did struggle socially, but I've learned so much from this game. I look forward to your questions.

And good luck to Devin.

Metta, if you want to flip a coin to determine our fate, then by all means do that. While I may not fully agree with it, I'll respect it, and I'll live with it.

I knew I would have an uphill battle from the moment I was in the f2. I knew that I would have to put up a hell of a fight, and that's what I'm here to do. I'm here to fight. Here to discuss things openly. I'm here to have confidence in the game I played. I'm not going to give up - that's the last thing I want to do. I'd like a chance to fight. I didn't play a strong game like Devin. I didn't win comps, but I hung in even when I thought the hope was gone.

I know we didn't always see eye to eye, and maybe I could've been a robot that was boring and dry. I know I could've had more confidence, and I know I could've pushed emotions away. I know there's so many things that I could've done better throughout this game.

But I've put a lot of work into this game. I've spent many hours trying to actually talk to people and trying to make moves. I did the best I could. I gave it my all, and I was willing to work with you. Should you have stayed at f5? Yeah, but I can't apologize for what happened. Should I have left my emotions out of it? Yeah. I can't say fully that I wish that round would've gone differently because it would've meant me being evicted, but I do wish I would've handled it better. I should've just kept things to myself, and I should've just left it at telling Drew I respect his decision regardless of what it meant.

I never had a f2 deal with you, but I made a f3 that fell through. I wanted it to work out because it would've been amazing. I owed you a lot because you used your nullifier on me when you didn't have to, and I don't know if I said it, but I greatly appreciated you doing that. You could've let me be evicted that round, and that would've changed the game completely. But you kept me, and that meant the world.

Early on, I put a lot of trust in you. Probably more than I should've, and I tried to communicate. I had a lot of trust that you wouldn't backdoor me when you threw me up on the block after Kaitlyn took herself down. I wasn't happy with going on the block, but I didn't fight it too hard because of the round I just came off of. Yes, I've made decisions out of fear sometimes, and yes, I've made mistakes. But don't we all make mistakes? Doesn't everyone make emotional decisions sometimes? I like taking fate into my own hands, and having it in the fate of others was hard.

My Panda moment in the game would probably be when I stayed at the round 3 eviction. I was at a really low point in the game, and I was in a bad place. I felt alone. I had people telling me one thing then later they would contradict it. I would talk to people, and sometimes they would try to keep me having hope, but I honestly felt hopeless. I felt like I had nowhere to turn. I was honest with Merron about what happened and how they originally wanted to pin the vote on him, and I gained his trust. People I trusted showed me they didn't have my back. I logged off that night feeling defeated. Like I was done, and when I saw I stayed, it was a very eye opening experience. It showed me that I can trust the people who say they trust me. By staying, I was able to build better relationships. While that was the start of a roller coaster, it was one of the most humbling experiences ever.

Thank you.

Danielle:
- Please elaborate on your decision to evict Chicken George at F4 and why you felt it was the best move for your game.

To the both of you:
- You both had moments where your games probably should've been over and yet, here you are, both with a chance to win. What do you feel was most significant in getting you to overcome that adversity?
- Why does your opponent not deserve to win?
- If you could go back and change one thing in your game (a move, a thing you said, a vote, whatever) what would it be and why?


One reason I voted to evict Chicken George was because I wanted to keep my word to Devin. Very early on in the game I made a lot of mistakes by not sticking to my word and by lying to people. I didn't want to repeat those same mistakes again. I made a F2 with Devin at F5. Devin told me the round you were evicted that sometimes we need to take risks in this game, and I needed to take that risk. Since F5, I've compared notes with Devin and I found out that George had been telling him the same exact thing he was telling me which really sketched me out. I had to figure out the best way for me to make it to f2. When I won the veto, George also started threatening me. I really didn't appreciate being threatened, and it rubbed me the wrong way. At the time, I honestly thought it was my best chance of sitting in the f2. I didn't see a scenario where I would've been here otherwise. I was going up against Drew, a competition best and one that was very likely to win the final HoH, and I thought if he won he would 100% take George with him. By keeping my word to Devin, I knee I would make it to the end. I took a risk hoping it would pay off.


I don't like giving up, and I put a lot of work into relationships. I'm always fighting, and I'm always gunning for what I want to achieve. I would constantly try socializing. When it came to round 3, had I not had somewhat of relationship with Metta he wouldn't have used the nullifier to save me. Had I not been honest with you, I don't think you would've kept me. Had I not worked on mending the relationship with Drew, I don't think he would've kept me at the tie. Had George not saw me as beneficial to his game, he would've never gone to Drew about the veto. Had I not had a F2 with Devin, he probably wouldn't have kept me when that vote tied. I worked hard at building these relationships with people. Those were the most important part of this for me. Those I was close to let me rant and vent and you kept me going even when I felt like giving up.

I don't think Devin deserves to win because there was times he said that he didn't talk to anyone. He hadnt talked to them since like the beginning. Not to mention there was times he handled situations very poorly. He was lying straight to people's faces making them think he was going to do one thing. He played George. He would tell him something, then Devin would come to me and want me to tell him if George even brought it up. Devin told me he was making George think he was the mastermind by stroking his ego. He would sometimes just randomly disappear from conversations only to come back hours later apologizing for it. At the end he hid on invisible because he didn't want to talk to people. Yeah he won a lot of comps, but there's more to this game than just winning comps.


If I could change one thing, it would be how I handled the Rachelle eviction. I lied to the people that trusted me the most, and then I was involved in a plan to pin the vote on you because at first it seemed like Drew believed that I voted with them. I let my emotions get the best of me, and they guided that decision. I didn't talk to my allies about it. I led them on like I was going to vote with them. I broke a lot of relationships that day. I broke a lot of people's trust, and I left myself in a very vulnerable position. During that round I should've talked to my allies more. I should've told them what was happening. I should've been honest with Rachelle. I wouldn't have lied about it. I wouldn't have led people on, and I definitely wouldn't have let my emotions guide my decision.

This is a waste of my time.... I don't even know why I'm trying.... I suck.... oh well I guess....

Honestly I wish I would've been evicted round 3. Would've saved a lot of problems....